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I had intense fear and panic because we were obviously crashing.
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Out of my heart came the thought, oh, God help, I'm going to die.
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From the time that they pronounced me dead was a good 45 minutes.
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It's determined that I was not breathing for 20 minutes.
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They cut my clothes and then they paddled my heart.
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My heart had stopped and I could see people screaming and crying, but I didn't realize
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that was actually my physical body because I was somewhere else.
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About 20 past four in the afternoon, by half past seven I was dead.
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Clinically dead, four minutes.
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And they were crying because I was dead and I was trying to tell them, no, I'm not dead,
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I'm just fine, I'm okay.
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I was greeted by people I'd known in the past.
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I started to feel like I was surrounded by all this warm, loving, beautiful, soothing,
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loving energy.
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I'm back with God again.
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I just felt this almighty release like, wow, I'm back, I'm back home again.
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Incredibly safe and felt at home.
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I'd come back home.
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It was a very strong feeling, I've come back home.
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The only thing that I could feel, if you can imagine absolute love and peace, there wasn't
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anything else to be felt.
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And light is literally emitting from him.
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And I could feel that that tremendous amount of love was coming through him as well.
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They were brighter than everybody else.
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And I just knew who they were.
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We are so happy to have with us today, Alyssa Hope.
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Alyssa, how are you?
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Good.
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How are you?
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I'm good.
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You know, I feel like before we start, this just came to my mind, this is going to be
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such an unusual story today.
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I'm excited for people to hear it.
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And I think if I were one of those guys doing the movie preview things, it would sound something
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like a story from beyond both sides of the veil about love, about life, about, you know,
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and that kind of dramatic thing, because this is an unusual story that includes that and
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a whole bunch more.
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Yes, I know.
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It's like it covers pretty much everything.
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You know, if I died, I came face to face with God.
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I was sent back as his messenger.
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And then I met my twin flame here on earth.
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All right.
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Enough teaser for now.
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Okay.
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I don't want to give too much away right up front.
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Hey, tell us a little bit about you.
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Where are you from?
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I grew up in Oceanside, New York, but I was actually born in Connecticut, in Stamford,
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Connecticut.
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I lived there for two years and then moved to Oceanside, New York, which is the south
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shore of Long Island.
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And that's where I had my near death experience at 14 years old.
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And now I actually live about 45 minutes away from where I grew up.
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I live on the Gold Coast of Long Island now in Huntington, New York.
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And it's absolutely beautiful because I live on the Long Island Sound, but I also live
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right near a nature preserve and I'm the biggest animal lover.
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So, you know, I always have deers and foxes and, you know, all this wonderful wildlife
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roaming around.
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And a lot of times there'll be a deer just, you know, lounging around in my backyard.
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I really love where I live.
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You know, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else.
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So I'm very fortunate.
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You know, it's a wonderful place to be.
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We must be kindred spirits a little bit.
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I'm not in New York, but we have deer roaming our property every single day, you know.
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And of course, some of the things that we raise, too, like chickens and honeybees and
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things like that.
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Yes, I actually feed the wildlife.
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So I'm the biggest animal lover.
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I do a lot of animal rescue and I'll be donating, you know, a lot of the sales from my book.
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It goes towards my animal rescue work that I do.
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And my mission is to expand a good no-kill animal shelter, which takes, you know, millions
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of dollars to do.
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But that has been my mission since I'm a little girl.
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So that's great.
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Well, thank you for doing that.
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You may be interested in an episode we had on recently with Anne Bayford from London.
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It's episode number 312.
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And she is someone that can actually communicate with animals.
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Wow.
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Telepathically back and forth, you'd probably be fascinated with her story.
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Wow.
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But I have to say, people refer to me as the animal whisperer because I have a very special
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connection with animals, too.
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I don't know if it's to the extent that Anne does, but I definitely do have a very strong
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connection with animals, which is another podcast in itself.
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Okay.
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We'll deal with that another day.
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For now, let's go back in time a few years to when you were 14 years old.
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Right.
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Tell me what led up to your near-death experience.
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My mother, she was going to be going through a divorce.
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So my dad wasn't giving her, you know, the money that he used to give her.
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So instead of my mom taking me to my regular dentist to have my cavity filled, she took
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me to a clinic that opened up a couple of minutes away from my house.
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And unfortunately, this dentist at the dental clinic, he gave me too much nitrous oxide,
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too much gas, which cut off my oxygen supply.
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And I had no pulse.
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He confirmed that I was dead.
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And during the time that they were doing CPR, my soul left my body and traveled to heaven,
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where I met my three guardian angels.
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And I actually came face to face with God, not Jesus.
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It was God who gave me the choice of staying in heaven or returning to my life with an
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important purpose.
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Obviously, I chose the purpose.
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Yes, you did.
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I want to go, you're going fast.
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I want to hear a lot more detail about this.
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First of all, warning, don't go to a cheap dentist.
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There are people that use nitrous oxide just for fun as kind of a pleasure drug.
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There's another warning for that to be extremely careful if you're into that kind of thing.
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My neighbor, her dentist died that way.
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Just exactly what you said.
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He was found with the nitrous oxide mask over his face in the morning from just night and
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he was dead.
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He didn't get to come back as I did.
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So it is very, a lot of people have died that way.
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All right.
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There's our public service announcement for the day.
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Thank you.
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By the way, you referenced a book and I'm just going to throw it out there right now
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and it'll be in the show notes too.
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Coming out later this summer, it's called Hope from Heaven.
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Yes, it's the publication date is August 1st, 2023, but it is available now for pre-order
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on Amazon, Barnes and Noble.
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And you can even pre-order it on my website at www.alysahope.com.
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Okay.
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All right.
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So you're 14, you're in the doctor's chair, the dentist chair and you're gone.
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You are lights out.
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There's no pulse.
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You're gone.
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Tell me step by step, detail by detail.
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Where did you go?
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What did you see?
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Okay.
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My soul left my body and it traveled through a long dark speeding tunnel and this long
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dark speeding tunnel, it seemed to go on for miles and miles.
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It felt to me for a good minute or two and I know that I was aware, I mean, I did not
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know exactly where this long dark tunnel was leading me to, but I did feel aware that my
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soul was no longer in my body.
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You know, my soul left my body behind and my soul was just traveling at great speed
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through this long dark speeding tunnel.
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And finally, at the end of this tunnel, it opens up into the brightest light that you
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could imagine.
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I mean, if you think about the sun, if you were right next to the sun and it was just
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illuminating, I mean, it's hard.
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It's really hard to put into words, but it didn't hurt me.
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Like normally it would blind you, this huge light radiating, but it didn't.
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And my three guardian angels were waiting for me in the light and they told me I was
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safe with them in heaven.
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And they did explain to me that I had an accident back at the dentist and that I died and they
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were sent to wait for me in the light.
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They really wanted me to stay with them in heaven, but I kept saying, I have to go back.
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My mom really needs me.
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My mom really needs me.
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You know, I just felt like I couldn't leave her alone.
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You know, I really didn't feel like she would be able to handle her 14 year old only daughter
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dying.
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Did you have any idea who these three guardian angels were?
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Were they relatives?
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Did they have any idea?
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No, well, you know, I was only 14 years old and I did not have, I didn't know any relatives
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or anyone that died at that time because I was only 14 years old.
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So no, they were just three beautiful, they were my guardian angels and they actually
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all looked alike.
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What did they look like?
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Well, they had long, wavy, long, beautiful blonde golden hair with big blue eyes and
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porcelain skin and they had the most kindest, gentle, sweetest voices.
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They were extremely beautiful.
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I remember thinking that they were triplets, you know, they said maybe they're triplets
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because they looked so much alike.
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I just felt like this overwhelming sense of love just pouring out from the light into
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me, you know, almost like basking in this glory of pure just bliss.
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I really was very tempted to stay with them in heaven, but at the same time, I just, I
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was very close with my mother and I was her only daughter.
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You know, I had two older brothers, but my mother only wanted a daughter.
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So I just didn't feel like I could leave her behind like that.
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So I kept saying, I have to go back.
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My mom really needs me.
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And my guardian angels said, you know, they were saying, your mother will be very hurt,
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but in time she'll, you know, she'll be okay.
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In time they said, before you make your final decision, we want to show you one last thing.
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And they showed me, it was my funeral, what it would look like and be like had I chose
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not to go back and stay in heaven.
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And I saw my funeral and everybody was so upset, but the only person who was hysterical
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and inconsolable was my mother.
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And she was actually throwing herself on top of my casket.
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And she was screaming, Alissa, Alissa, come back to me.
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Don't leave me.
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Come back to me.
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I need you.
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I love you.
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Come back.
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She was calling me her baby.
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She was saying, back to me, baby.
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So again, I said to my guardian angels, I can't leave her.
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I have to go back.
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And then there was a big white door, a big door.
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And my guardian angels said, if you pass through this door, there'll be no turning back.
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Then you will have to stay here.
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Again, I was just so confused because they kept telling me, I'll only get this one chance
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to stay with them in heaven.
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They said, once you pass through this door, you will be so amazed at everyone who was
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here behind this door, so much more of glorious heaven.
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And again, I was crying.
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I did not know what to do.
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Inside of me was inching towards that door, and then I would hear my mother and see her
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again, flinging herself on top of my casket, pleading with me, come back to me, Alissa,
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don't leave me.
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And then all of a sudden, I hear footsteps and God walks over right in front of me.
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And I know it was not Jesus.
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It was God because God said, what's the matter, my child?
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Why are you crying?
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Why are you so upset?
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And I said, I have to go back.
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My mom really needs me.
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God said, I understand.
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And he turned to my three guardian angels and he said, send her back immediately.
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And he said to me, but I'm sending you back with an important purpose.
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He said, it will not be revealed to you until the time is right.
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He said, you're much too young now to handle such a big responsibility.
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And I said, I understand, and I said, I hope you're not upset with me for not choosing
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to stay in heaven.
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And my guardian angels, they said, of course not.
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We'll be watching over you for the rest of your life.
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And they said, whenever you're feeling lonely, you're going to feel something stroking your
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hair.
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And they said, that's going to be us stroking your hair, comforting you.
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My soul went back through that long speeding tunnel and it went back.
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I still, just before my soul was completely back in my body, I heard the dentist with
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the hygienist, they were still doing CPR on me.
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And the hygienist said, there's still no pulse.
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And the dentist was hysterical.
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He was screaming, crying, don't give up, don't give up.
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We can't stop.
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We have to bring her back.
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He said, she's only 14 years old, don't give up.
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So then maybe 10 seconds later, I heard the hygienist said, there's a pulse.
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We have her back now.
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And the dentist said, thank God.
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And I laughed to myself.
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I said, I already did.
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Thank God.
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That's good.
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Like if he only knew if I decided to stay in heaven, they never would have brought me
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back with the CPR.
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Okay, please let me break this down a little bit more.
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I have lots of questions as we go.
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The three guardian angels, were they speaking out loud or telepathically?
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Do you know?
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I believe, I recall that it was all telepathically that I didn't see any lips moving.
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You know, I didn't like, I didn't actually, I believe it was all telepathically.
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Because don't forget, you know, your soul is no longer in a physical body.
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So it's all telepathically.
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But at the same time, you hear it as if how we're speaking to each other.
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You know, it was that loud and clear.
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Yeah.
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And I understand if it's hard to remember some of this.
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But I do have photographic memories.
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So I mean, I really remembered all like yesterday.
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All right, tell me more about this brief meeting with God.
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You said you heard footsteps.
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Yes.
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God was in human form.
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I have met God's spirit twice since I came back here.
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But when he came to me, while I was in my physical body, he was in spirit form.
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But when I was in heaven, he was in human form.
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He looked a lot like the pictures you've seen of Jesus Christ, but only older.
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His face was, I would say, more mature, like 20, 25 years older than the pictures you have
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seen of Jesus, which makes complete sense because Jesus is the Son of God.
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Okay.
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Explain what you mean by seeing spirit form versus human form.
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What do you see is the difference?
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Well, when my beloved twin flame, Todd Irvin died, it was actually God who healed me two
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weeks after Todd died.
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And I don't want to go into too much detail because I don't want to give my whole book
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away.
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Well, and we'll get to that part in a minute.
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Let's stick with this 14-year-old NDE first and pick through that.
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Is there anything else about meeting him or impressions of him or anything else that you
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can tell us about?
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Well, I was completely in awe of him when I met him because I mean, I remembered thinking
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to myself, this sort of thing just doesn't happen.
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How did I go from being in the dentist chair to standing face to face with God?
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So he was just, it's hard to put into the words, the love that I felt from God and that
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I had for God.
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And when he called me my child, it's just something that I will never ever, you know,
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you can't ever forget anything like that.
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And he had such a strong, powerful presence, and a very strong, deep voice.
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But at the same time, he was really just such a gentle, loving God.
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I mean, when I said I have to go back, my mom really needs me.
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Immediately, he said, I understand.
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And he turned to my angels and he said, send her back immediately.
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I can't really put into words what it would be like, you know, that I met God, our heavenly
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father, the creator of our universe.
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I was spiritual before my near death experience, but it made me even more so spiritual where,
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of course, I'm not afraid of dying because I always say, been there, done that already.
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And if people say to me, you know, why do you think, why were you the chosen one?
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You know, I kid around and I say, God only knows, you know.
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But I do take my purpose that God chose me to come face to face with him in heaven and
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send me back as his messenger.
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I take it very seriously to be doing some of his spiritual work from heaven here on
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earth, you know, is an honor for me.
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I'm just so grateful that my whole purpose was revealed to me by my beloved twin flame,
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Todd.
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Forty-two, actually, Todd died three years ago.
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So it was revealed to me when I was, well, actually Todd died January 15th, 2020.
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And my purpose was revealed to me on the morning of Todd's funeral.
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So that I was I was 52, just about to turn 53.
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My birthday is in March.
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Now I'm dedicating the rest of my life towards doing what I've sent back here to do, which
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fulfills me greatly.
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You know, this is my passion and my purpose.
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And I hope that I am making God proud of me now because, you know, he did send me back
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as his messenger with such an important purpose.
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So if I always say to know that one life has breathed easier because of you, that is purpose.
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Yeah, that's beautiful.
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Before we move on from your 14 year old experience, tell me what happened when you came back.
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You wake up in the dentist's office.
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Who is the first person that you tell about what happened to you and what was their reaction?
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Right.
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You know, people have asked me, did you tell your mother as soon as you left the dentist?
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And I said, no, I didn't.
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The only thing I said to her was I said, you would not believe what just happened to me
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in there.
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I said, don't ever take me back there again.
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And she knew something happened because the dentist said to her, he said, I couldn't finish
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filling her cavity.
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He said, he just said to her something happened from the nitrous oxide.
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He said, I couldn't finish doing her filling her cavity.
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He said, take her home.
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He said, have her lay down.
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And he did say to her, you know, if I don't feel well, he did tell her then to take me,
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you know, to the doctor or even the emergency room.
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And because a couple of years after this happened to me, my mother and I, we were watching the
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news together and a 17 year old girl from the Bronx, it was on the news, she died the
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same way at the dentist having cavity filled and she died from too much nitrous oxide.
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She didn't get to come back like I did.
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And I was nauseous for the rest of that day.
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But you know, I just, I did not go to the hospital or the doctor, but I was extremely
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nauseous.
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But I told my best friend, Amy, about it.
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I went with her to get her hair cut.
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And while we were waiting for her, for the hair cutter to cut her hair, I told her all
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about it.
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And I said, don't ever be afraid to die.
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And I told her what happened to me just earlier that day.
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And she said, this is typical teenager talk.
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She said, wow, that's so cool.
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You met God.
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And she said, thanks for telling me because now I won't be afraid to die either.
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You know, but I really did not tell anybody else until I would say, when I was 20 years
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old, I had my first real puppy love.
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His name was Steve and I told him about it.
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And he just thought that was so amazing.
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And then I started to tell more people about it.
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So I would say from 20 years old on, I would start, I would want to talk about it then
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more, you know, and everybody would say who I told, you know, they'd say they're getting
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chills and you should write a book about it.
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And I said, I will.
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But I kept saying when the time is right, when my full purpose is revealed to me, then
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I will write a book.
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All right.
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Let's jump to that.
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So you were told during your near death experience, you were sent back with a message and a purpose,
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but you didn't know what it was at that time.
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They told you, you would find out later.
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Well, it actually was told to me, but God said to me, once you have souls back in your
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body, you will not remember everything that you were told what it was.
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So it was told to me at the time, but once my soul went back in my body, I just didn't
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remember.
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I would remember it in bits and pieces.
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You know, I knew I was sent back to do spiritual healing, but I didn't know like exactly, you
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know, I didn't know how like I would be writing this book, you know, and I didn't know like
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there's interest from a Hollywood producer, director to turn it into a movie.
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You know, I just didn't know what the full spectrum of it was, but I did know that I
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was sent back as God's messenger for a reason, but I just didn't know exactly, you know,
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the way it was revealed to me.
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I didn't even, I didn't remember that I was going to be meeting my beloved twin flame
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Todd.
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And let's jump up to that because you've mentioned Todd a few times now.
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So I think people are wondering, well, what's the Todd story?
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Let's go ahead and jump forward quite a few years now to Todd.
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Okay.
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So I actually saw a picture of Todd when I was a teenager because I was a teenage model,
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but I was not, you know, Todd was a supermodel.
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I was just a working petite model.
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Todd was a famous supermodel.
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And I saw a picture of Todd when I was only a teenager.
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I was only 16 years old.
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And I said out loud, I said, that is my Prince chiming.
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I said, he is my Prince chiming.
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We're going to be together one day.
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I just, I just knew it like call it a spiritual awakening.
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You know, I just knew Todd and I were destined to be together when the time was right.
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We actually did meet 34 years later.
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But the thing is, I dreamt about Todd.
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I kept having this reoccurring dream throughout the years until I met Todd, but I didn't know
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that it was Todd at the time because I had only seen that picture of Todd when he was
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like the 25 year old model.
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But in my dream, he was the age that he was when I met him.
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So I met Todd when he was 62 years old.
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I was 50 and Todd was 62.
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And in my dream, that's the age that Todd was.
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So I didn't know when I kept having this reoccurring dream, I would wake up and say, who is this
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person?
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And he was in my dream, he was waiting for me at the altar to marry me.
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And my mother was walking me down the aisle to him.
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And as soon as we got to Todd and Todd put his hand out, I would wake up, wake up from
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my dream.
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And it makes perfect sense to me now because Todd died before we actually did get to get
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married, but we were planning on getting married.
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So that makes perfect sense.
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And they say that you meet your twin flame.
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They say very often you dream about your twin flame years before you ever meet.
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What does twin flame mean?
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When flames are one soul that was split into two bodies and shared the same consciousness.
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So that's why Todd and I were able to connect with each other, with him in heaven and me
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still here on earth because, you know, where one soul that was split into two bodies and
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shared the same consciousness.
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I had confirmation of that again on the morning of his funeral, but you know, I don't want
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to give away everything in my book.
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That's okay.
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That's okay.
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That's not a problem.
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It is fascinating.
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It is.
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I mean, even me who has lived all of this, if I really sit there and think about everything
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that I've gone through in all of this, I mean, it still really blows my mind away.
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So it's pretty all fascinating.
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So I think people would ask, what does that have to do with your near death experience?
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Can you sort of close that loop for us?
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Yes.
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Well, because Todd and I being that we're twin flames, one soul that was split into
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two bodies and share the same consciousness, our lives paralleled each other's because,
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you know, twin flames, they're sent here in their last lifetime when their soul is very
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advanced and they're sent here by God as light workers to raise a vibration of love and energy
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throughout the world.
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So Todd and I, you know, we were both a light worker here.
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And even though, and so our purpose was very intertwined with each other's and our lives
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paralleled each other's in so many ways.
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And Todd was just as spiritual as me.
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And as I said, our lives intertwined each other's and paralleled how he was a model, I was a
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model and then he left modeling because for the same reason I did, you know, we both felt
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it was so superficial.
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Todd was also a psychologist and a family and marital therapist in Santa Monica, California.
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And he actually, he died when his last client left for the day.
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He was found deceased in his therapist chair and he died where he felt the most needed,
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helping others.
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And my last conversation with Todd that I had with him before he died, he said to me,
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he said, you know, I did, I fulfilled my purpose.
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I did what I was sent here to do.
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He said, helping others, said I was a darn good therapist.
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And it really gives me chills that that was our last conversation that we had before he
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died and was found deceased in his therapist chair.
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So his purpose, he's guiding me now from heaven to help me fulfill our twin flames purpose
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together.
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And I feel that my book did get published also because of Todd's platform being that,
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you know, he was a famous model.
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I feel that it really did help me get a traditional publishing contract versus self publishing.
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This way, when you're traditionally published, it's worldwide distribution so that I can
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really reach out with this book and educate people and inspire them and enlighten them
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all about God.
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Everything that I went through, all about God's spirituality and purpose and light and
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love, not only in heaven, but here on earth too.
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Did Todd also immediately understand your twin flame relationship or did that take him
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a while?
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Well, that's a very good question.
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Todd and I, we did not know when he was alive and when we were together here.
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We did not know about twin flames.
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We just thought, we thought we were soulmates, but we knew from the second that we met, him
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and I both said, whoa, like this is so intense.
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Todd would say what we have goes beyond the physical.
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He said it goes to the very core of our being because our relationship was so pure and beautiful
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and it was just so deep on a deeper level, spiritually, like nothing else that we both
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have ever experienced before.
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And Todd would say, and I would agree, he would say there was always something missing
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in every other relationship that he was ever in before.
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It was so breathtakingly beautiful.
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And then it continued after he died.
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I didn't even know that he died when he came to me in a visitation dream and he put his
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arms around me and he was holding me and he told me he loves me and will always be with
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me spiritually.
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And then as soon as I woke up, I found out he died.
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So that is the kind of afterlife communication that we have with each other.
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And it's been nonstop ever since.
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What do you mean by nonstop?
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How often do you communicate with him and how do you communicate?
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Pretty much every single day.
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He comes to me all the time in visitation dreams.
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He comes to me.
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If you see my YouTube video, it's called A Visit, A Visit for My Deceased Twin Flame.
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And it's also on my author website on the bottom of the home page.
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It's of Todd coming to me from heaven.
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You'll see the angel and that's Todd, my angel.
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You see it in the video and there's a lot of birds.
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They're reacting to Todd's angel energy and they're flying and circling all around my
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angel Todd.
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It's so beautiful.
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And I actually have another video that I'm holding on to.
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I have not posted that yet and it's of God's spirit making contact with me.
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Remember I told you God's spirit came to me two times since I've been back here in my
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lifetime.
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So that video I'm holding on to it when I'm ready to, you know, reveal it to the world.
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I will.
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But it's just so sacred that I'm actually I guess I'm waiting until God lets me know
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it's the right time to reveal it.
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And I did go show it to a priest and a rabbi and they both confirmed that it is the spirit
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of God.
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So it's quite extraordinary.
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This whole thing is extraordinary.
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How long were you two together before he passed away?
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Only three years, which, you know, I wish that it had been longer.
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But then I said to myself, I thank God, I thank God every day for even one day of what
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I had with Todd here on earth.
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And I actually feel like the way that Todd and I communicate with each other spiritually,
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we're actually closer than ever now, spiritually.
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So a part of me feels like he, even though I know he did die physically, we're together
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stronger than ever spiritually.
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So it's very comforting.
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How does your family, other people that you are close to, how do they feel about this
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relationship that you have with someone that's now deceased?
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Does it make sense to them?
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Is it hard for them to understand?
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How do they deal with it?
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Yes, I'm glad that you asked me that because my mother, who was also my best friend, and
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I came back from heaven from my mother.
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I, this is very emotional for me.
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She just passed away in February.
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So actually, she passed away exactly two months ago from today, February 5th.
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So when my Todd died, my mother, she was so wonderful.
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She really helped me get through it.
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You know, I would say to her, I miss him so much, and she would say to me, but you have
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his soul because she knew we were twin flames.
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You know, so it would really comfort me when she would remind me that, you know, that Todd
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and I are still together.
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And she would say, you will spend all of eternity together.
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And I would say life is just a moment of eternity.
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So I'm keeping busy now doing my spiritual work here on earth.
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And I know that I look forward towards reuniting with not only Todd, but my mother too in heaven.
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And my mother comes to me just as much as Todd does.
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My mother comes to me in visitation dreams.
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I'll just tell you this one thing, how incredible my mother and my spiritual relationship is.
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Todd and my anniversary is Valentine's Day.
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So my mother passed away February 5th.
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And then when Valentine's Day was coming up the day before, I said, how am I going to
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get through this Valentine's Day missing not only Todd, but now I'm grieving my mother
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who just passed away a week and a half before.
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My mother came to me in a visitation dream on Valentine's Day because I went to sleep
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after midnight.
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So she came to me on Valentine's Day and she said to me, don't be so sad because I'm the
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happiest that I've ever been because I was crying every day since she passed away until
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my mother came to me on Valentine's Day.
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And I know that she chose Valentine's Day because she knew that it would be such a hard
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day not only that she just passed away, but it was Todd and my anniversary too.
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So when she said, don't be so sad because I'm the happiest that I've ever been, not
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only I saw her joy, I felt it.
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She was so elated.
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She was younger.
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She was out of her old tired sick body and she was just beaming from ear to ear.
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She was so happy that when I woke up, I actually had a beautiful Valentine's Day and I have
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not shed a tear since she came to me like that.
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And then she also came to me on my birthday, which was March 5th.
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That's also very comforting.
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That's great.
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There are people out there that don't have the kind of faith and understanding that you
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do.
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There are probably some people that are going to hear some of these stories and say, oh,
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that's crazy.
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I would like to hear what you have to say both to those people and to those people that
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need a little pump up into their faith today.
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How do they know this stuff is real?
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Because it's the God's honest truth.
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I say to people, you can give me a polygraph, a lies detector test.
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I will be glad to take it on national television in front of the whole world.
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It is the God's honest truth.
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I do feel so blessed that God chose me to reveal the truth about Him, about heaven,
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about our loved ones always being with us spiritually.
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True love never dies.
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It is endless.
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My heart goes out to anyone who doesn't believe in this because they're just so far removed
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from the truth.
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This is why I'm actually a very private person.
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I was never on social media because I'm so private, but I knew that when God revealed
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my full purpose to me, I said, I can no longer keep this to myself.
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I have to do what God sent me back here to do, which means I have to come out of my,
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I can't be so private anymore, and I am dedicating the rest of my life towards educating people,
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inspiring them that God truly does exist.
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Having come face to face with Him myself and being sent back as His messenger, the only
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way I can truly convince people is if, you know, I will gladly, if they want to pay for
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me to take a lies detector test, I will pay.
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That won't be necessary.
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So is that what your full purpose is?
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Helping people understand God?
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Well, that's part of it.
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And my other purpose by having been sent back is also doing animal rescue.
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I'm so passionate about both my spiritual healing and helping animals because if you
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spell dog backwards, you know what you get, it's God, I just want to help animals because
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they're really babies and fur coats.
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You know, they need so much people to help them because I can't bear to hear of any cruelty,
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animal cruelty stories.
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Nothing breaks my heart more than that.
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So as I said, any money that I make goes straight into my animal rescue work that I do.
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Okay, last thing.
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You know, you mentioned, hey, you promise everything is true and you would even take
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a lie detector test, which we certainly don't want to ask you to do.
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I think this kind of thing people have to find out for themselves.
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Do you have any advice on how somebody can find out for themselves that God is real and
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the afterlife is real without going through what you went through?
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You know, most people I speak to, they are very spiritual and they do believe all of
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this and they will tell me a couple of people have said, you know, I have a relative that
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this happened to and some other people who may not be as spiritual and I'll say to them,
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well, you'll know for sure you'll find out when you die and your soul goes to heaven.
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But then I do say in the meantime, pray to God to enlighten you more spiritually, you
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know, because you have to have a close relationship with God, which I did even before my near
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death experience.
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Maybe that's why he chose me to be his messenger.
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I used to pray to God every morning when I was walking to school, you know, how many
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twelve year olds do you know who would actually do that?
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Right.
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I feel that if you pray and you are more open spiritually, you'll even be able to connect
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with God and your guardian angels and your loved ones that have passed away.
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You just have to in order to have a higher consciousness to heaven, you really have to
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be open spiritually or, you know, you're going to miss any signs that will come your
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way if you're not open to it, especially sure.
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So how afraid of death should people be?
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Not at all.
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Oh, heaven is so beautiful and it's really, you know, nothing to be afraid of because
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dying is just another process of being born.
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Your soul, you're just going back to where you originally came from.
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Nothing to be afraid of.
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That heaven is the most beautiful place you can be in.
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And it's just another dimension of where we are now.
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And you know, life is life is not easy.
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You know, it's it's hard, but it's also a gift and it's a learning experience.
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And once you serve and complete your purpose, this is when people have asked me, you know,
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when do you die?
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And it's actually your time is up here on earth once you have served and completed your
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purpose.
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That's when God calls you back home to heaven, to him.
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Okay.
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Thank you very much.
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Appreciate it.
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It's been fun, Alyssa.
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Yes.
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Thank you so much.
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I had a wonderful time and I do hope that I've enlightened you and your viewers.
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Okay.
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Thanks again.
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Thank you so much, Eric.
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It was a pleasure.
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If you have had a round trip death experience, we would love to hear about it.
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Send an email to eric at roundtripdeath.com.
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