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From the time that they pronounced me deaf was a good 45 minutes.
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They cut my clothes and then they paddled my heart, my heart had stopped.
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And I could see people screaming and crying, but I didn't realize that was actually my
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physical body because I was somewhere else.
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The only thing that I could feel, if you could imagine, absolute love and peace, there wasn't
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anything else to be felt.
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I was greeted by people I'd known in the past.
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I'm back home again.
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Incredibly safe and felt at home.
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Welcome to Roundtrip Death, everybody, and we have the special honor all the way from
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Belgium.
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We're talking to Patrick today.
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Good morning and good evening to you.
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How are you?
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Pretty good.
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Good evening and good morning to you.
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Did you tell me you live in a castle?
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Yes.
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So, it was a castle at one point or like a palace.
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Castles here are not fortresses like what you see in Germany.
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They're like big estates.
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There's two still in a town that I have that are active castles, big nobility estates.
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The interesting story was he's actually a pretty famous doctor, very famous for ornithology.
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And he also did the family lines in the Congo, basically mapped out like the royal family
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lines and everything else, took part in World War I and in World War II, he was still a
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doctor.
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He was part of the underground resistance smuggling Allied pilots that got shot down
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or Allied air crew back across the channel.
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And he was caught by the Nazis and eventually he was executed in Berlin.
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But yeah, so he did a lot of good stuff for the Allied war effort.
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Wow.
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That is awesome.
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Well, today we're talking about near-death experiences.
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And yours happened not that long ago.
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No, about a year and a half ago now at this point.
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And awfully traumatic because this is related to food poisoning.
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In fact, speaking of trauma, I know your wife does not like to relive this.
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Before we get into the whole story, do you mind sharing why it's so difficult to talk
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about?
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I had just retired from the Army.
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I had worked for a civilian job now.
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But I just retired from the Army.
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So that's almost 23 years.
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So it's 22 and a half years total service.
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And she's watching me basically fade away on the celebration we're supposed to have for
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the retirement.
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So I mean, she's watching me go.
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I was gone twice that night, medically dead, not completely dead.
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But I guess was it cardio death?
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If your heart stops, that's dead enough for me.
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It sucks when you can feel it too.
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It's really terrible when you can feel it.
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OK.
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Let's go back about a year and a half ago.
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You came across some bad oysters and didn't know it.
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What was going on?
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You were out to eat and what happened?
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Yeah, nothing unusual.
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It was a pretty decent night.
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And we get back to the beach house that we were staying at.
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You know, everybody goes to bed.
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And this was in Florida, correct?
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South Carolina.
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South Carolina, OK.
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Yeah, Myrtle Beach area.
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And go to sleep, no problem.
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Probably about two to three hours later, I wake up with just this.
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It's really hard to describe.
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It's one of those pains where you just like, you know, you're kind of in a bad position.
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Like, this is not good.
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And I noticed that I couldn't move.
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I couldn't, you know, all my limbs were going tingly.
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And I just barely managed to flop over, nudge my wife enough and just blurred out, you know,
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poison 911.
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And my wife, of course, she's waking up like, oh my God.
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And at that point, that was the first time I went was I, I, as she described it, you
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know, did the curled up kicking cockroach type of thing.
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I had no control over this.
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I didn't know what was going on.
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I was lucid the entire time.
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I know I didn't have any control over anything on my body.
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At that point, I couldn't feel anything.
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Everything felt like it was on fire.
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And she said, I like tensed up and all of a sudden I just dropped.
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And she said, the mice went glassy.
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People's completely gone, everything.
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And I remember during that time, it roughly coincided with, you know, everything's hurting
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and all of a sudden it just felt like I dropped the way.
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It was a weird dropping feeling.
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And then there was this place that my grandpa, you know, he lived in Charleston when I was
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a kid and they were still developing it back in the 80s.
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And there was a pond across the street.
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And I remember I'm there.
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I'm looking out of like, whenever I drop, I'm looking out across that pond.
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I don't know whether it has no significance to me.
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I just remember I was there.
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And it was almost like a, like a trip through like, you know, going, going back through
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your life.
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Like they say, a life flashes before your eyes.
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Those are some things that just, they had no real significance.
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But I remember I was there looking across.
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I remember we were fishing.
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And then after that it was, it was, everything was in gray tones.
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It was very familiar.
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So it's really hard to describe, but it's kind of like a club of some type.
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I know it sounds weird, but you've got those rope barriers.
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You mean like the velvet kind?
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Yep.
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That was weird.
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Like family members that have been dead for a while were behind it and they're yelling
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at me and I'm all of a sudden back to being a kid.
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Like I'm only a little kid and I'm running towards those rope barriers and somebody,
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I guess like, like he equated it to a bouncer is like closing the rope barrier off and pushing
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me back.
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And you hear, I'm yelling, no, no, go back, go back.
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Go like that.
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I'm trying to go forward, but then they keep yelling, go back, go back.
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Somebody I don't know who it was.
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A voice I'd never heard before was like, go back.
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It's not your time.
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Yeah.
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It was just a weird, it was a voice out of nowhere.
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Go back.
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It's not your time.
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All right.
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Slow down.
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I want to totally pick this apart a little bit.
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So you, you mentioned something about the, I think you used the term dropping.
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You felt like you were dropping.
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Explain that.
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Yeah.
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So it was like my vision was falling away.
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Everything was falling away.
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Like the world was falling.
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And not like, it's not like going down outward per se, hell or anything like that.
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It wasn't as that it was just like, like all of a sudden, you notice the room is unnaturally
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or the roof is unnaturally high.
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Everything's unnaturally far away.
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Everything just drops.
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Did you feel any kind of sensation of maybe you were leaving your body or more like a
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dream or what else?
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So I do remember, like I said, my depth perception got to where it was like, you know, the room
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was much larger, much higher, the roof was much higher as I'm looking at it.
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And it was a drop like a falling feeling.
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Okay.
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That's very unusual.
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That's interesting.
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And everything was not hurting.
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That's a, that's a thing is that I couldn't feel the hurt anymore.
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The only thing I felt was the cold in my chest.
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That was before the paramedics got there.
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My heart stopped the first time.
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Okay.
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So I felt, I felt that, but it was, it was, it faded away.
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And it was a drop.
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Like I said, like the, the, that your depth perception were, you know, everything seems
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further and further away, a dropping feeling.
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She said at that point I was twitching.
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Like my body was just twitching.
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And you said you saw relatives.
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Yeah.
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Tell me about that.
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Do you know about how many and who they were?
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Definitely saw my grandmother, my grandfather, one of my uncles that passed a couple of
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years ago, a few others, I wasn't sure who they were, but they felt familiar and it wasn't,
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you couldn't really see them.
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They said, everything's in gray tones.
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You just kind of feel who they are.
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They're very familiar, but they're behind this like velvet rope barrier type of thing
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telling me, you know, no, go back, go back.
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Like, don't go this way.
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Go back.
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And as I'm running up towards, towards the ropes, almost like a bouncer, you know, somebody
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just closes off the, you know, the little rope barrier and it's, you know, basically
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like, you know, I put in their hand up, like, don't go, don't go.
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And it's all very confusing.
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Keep in mind that I'm a zero once guy.
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I'm a RF engineer.
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So I, you know, I like zeros and ones.
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I like things that like either make sense or it doesn't, you know, and I couldn't explain
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any of it, but, you know, you can feel the relatives, but you can't really see anything.
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Everything's in gray tone for some reason, or at least it was for me after I fell away.
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Everything went to gray tones.
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And I was like, kind of like being outside in a full moon where it's cloudy, but there's
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still a moon light going through.
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Then you can kind of see shapes of people.
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Really hard to describe.
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Like I said, it's just kind of like different tones of gray, but it wasn't solid.
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They were, it's really hard to describe it.
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How are you feeling at this point?
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In other words, especially from the other, the beings that you are seeing there, are
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you feeling drawn towards them?
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Are you feeling fear?
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Or what do you think?
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I feel like I'm a kid.
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You know, whenever you, you know, get a little, like maybe one or two year old that's just
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learning how to walk.
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And all of a sudden they run off in their pants and they go underneath, you know, say
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like the line at the grocery store or something like that running off.
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And as people try and tell you to, you know, go back, I felt like a, like little again.
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And I'm running.
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I remember I was running towards it.
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And all of a sudden, like there were people there that I didn't know.
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I didn't know who they were, but they were trying to keep me from going through to all
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of a sudden I just remember that voice just cut through everything and said, not your
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time.
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Go back.
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And then after that it was follow me, focus on breathing.
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Then it was like, inhale, exhale, inhale, it was whatever, whoever the voice was, coaching
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me on how to breathe.
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And it wasn't my wife.
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Paramedics had not shown up yet and they had just woken up my sister, her husband, and
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then my older daughter who's an adult.
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They just woken them up to try to basically try anything.
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I didn't recognize any of their voices.
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This was a voice that was coaching me on how to breathe.
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And that was something that you should, it was very calming.
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And I couldn't place if it was a man or a woman or something, but there was somebody
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coaching me on how to breathe.
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And I remember I came out of it final and I remember like taking that first breath and
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everything hurting, like my lungs hurt, you know, my limbs hurt, everything hurt, but
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I was back.
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Probably about a, I don't know, I didn't have a sense of time.
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I could hear everything.
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So the first thing that goes when you go is your sight, but your ears are still going.
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So you do hear people out there.
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And whenever the ears go, that's when I thought I was done.
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But I could hear everything.
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I could hear my sister freaking out.
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You know, I could hear my wife freaking out.
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I was back.
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My vision started coming back.
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And I remember that that first time it was like, Oh man, what happened?
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Like, where did I go?
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Like what time is it?
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You know, like you just felt disoriented.
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Okay.
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So you're back, but that's not the end of the experience we're going to be talking about.
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Oh no, I'd hurt.
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Oh, everything was still hurting.
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My limbs are still twitching.
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Okay.
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What happened next?
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Paramedics took how long to get there?
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I don't know.
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Okay.
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I don't know.
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I don't know how long.
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I know when this whole thing was over, it was sunrise.
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We probably went to bed about like 10 or 11 or so.
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So it was an all night thing.
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Paramedics come in there.
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I was a loose enough, but I was, I was focusing on breathing so much because I was not breathing
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normally.
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I had to kind of make a compromise where the only thing I really had control over was
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my stomach for some reason.
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So I was pumping in my stomach and trying to breathe and they're asking me questions and
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I'm like, I want to answer, but help me with like some type of breathing apparatus or help
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me breathe.
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I'm trying to communicate that to them.
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And then one guy, he was a, he was a, I forgot what he did in the military before he became
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a paramedic, but he started talking to me about, you know, just like, Hey, you know,
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what service were you in?
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You know, Hey, I was army.
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I'm trying to talk to the guy, but I'm like, I'm like, focus breathing.
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Like, I'm trying to like tell them, help me breathe, like help me breathe.
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Like I said, I had no control of my limbs.
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The only thing I had control over was my stomach.
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Then I'm trying to basically force the breath.
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Finally I remember them picking up the sheets and loading me onto the ambulance.
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I got in there.
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I just remember like I came to finally like a hundred percent and then all of a sudden
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like everything turned red and I went again.
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There were people there again or she, I would say, she, so they felt very familiar.
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Tell me, no, no, go back, go back.
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My eyes went or my eyes went this time.
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I'm hooked up to a EKG so I can hear the, my heart stop.
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And I said, I just remember thinking to myself, you know, keeping it clean on here.
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Oh heck no.
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That's it.
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Like, come on.
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Again, it was the whole not your time go back.
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And I just remember like they stopped the ambulance.
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The drivers got out to try to work on me.
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And I'm basically going into spasms at this point.
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I could feel my heart stop.
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Your limbs go cold.
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It's like a sleep paralysis, but it starts in the chest and it works its way across and
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all your limbs are basically fighting for air.
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I never want to experience pain like that again.
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Like I left again and I just remember getting angry, basically turning around so to speak
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and running back.
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I just got real angry.
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Like this is not how it's supposed to end or something like that.
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I just remember getting extreme anger.
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I came to, I sat up, poor paramedic.
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I was probably kid of about maybe early 20s or so.
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I grabbed him by the collar.
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I sat up, I'm like, no.
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And he's like, do we need to tie him down?
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I'm like, no, no, just go.
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Just finally I was able to actually have control over myself, but I was just anger.
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So you're talking for the first time now, sounds like.
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Well, I had been able to like, blurt out words before because I didn't have the breath that
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tried to make a conversation.
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So it was simple words that would blur out to the paramedics like IV, breathing, focus,
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breathe, like I'm trying to tell them like, Hey, this is what I need.
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I need something to flush out.
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I think they finally figured it out because they did inject.
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I want to say I'm probably going to have this wrong.
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I think it was like the task or something.
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I tried to flush it out and the IV line, but they injected it and it started feeling better
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after that.
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And then finally with the anger, I was actually able to talk normally.
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I remember being angry and coming back, like sitting up, grabbing the poor kid.
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He looked like his eyes were wide because they were just prepping the shock paddles
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and bringing me back.
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And I sat up and I cried.
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I was like, no, it's like, do we need a time down?
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Like I'm fine.
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I'm fine.
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All right.
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A minute ago, you said everything went red.
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What do you mean by that?
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My vision went red.
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My vision, it just went red and then all of a sudden faded like gone.
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Okay.
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This time it was quick.
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The first time it was the dropping away feeling where everything was slowly slowing down and
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all of a sudden gone.
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This time it was quick.
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It was, I don't know if you've ever seen a spectrum analyzer before where you see sound
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waves and everything else they moved through, but they kind of have a curve shape to them
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whenever the people talk.
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And it was like, it was like looking at spectrum analyzer and the red lines going across and
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then all of a sudden everything just kind of went dark red.
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And then all of a sudden I couldn't see anymore.
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The vision went black again.
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That's when I left.
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And then I remember hearing everything.
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I remember hearing the heart monitor go out.
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Again, it was the same situation where I'm, like I said, a bunch of shapes and they're
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like, no, not your time.
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Go back, go back.
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Finally, I remember like I turned around and I was like, all right, well, this is not
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how it is.
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I need to go.
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And I remember getting angry.
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And then after that, I felt like a told chef sat up, grabbed that poor pair of med.
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I remember to look in his eyes, I got my vision back.
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The first thing I'm looking at is, this is early 20s paramedic.
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Or kid.
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Yeah.
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I mean, to me, he's a kid.
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I know I'm in my 40s.
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Yeah.
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And did you say that they had shocked you or they were about to?
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No, they were, they were prepping the paddles.
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Okay.
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So they were getting them out.
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They were getting them ready.
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And I just remember, I don't know if I was angry at the paddles or like I didn't want
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them to shock me.
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I just remember I was going, no.
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And they're like, is he like, do we need to tie him down?
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Like I'm fine.
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Get to the hospital.
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Now, back to the interview.
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Now, have you had any medical training because you almost sound like you were giving them
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instruction and telling them specifically what you needed?
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I mean, I'm not a medic.
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You do get, you know, it's the basics, combat life-saver training you talk to, a few medics
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over, you know, military career, you know, our docs, our combat medics, some of the best
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people that, you know, the best infantryman, best friend basically.
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Because that's a guy or woman that's going to bring you back to life, going to save your
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life.
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So, you kind of learn a few tips and tricks.
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Plus, I have a few years of combat as well.
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But what did you know about poisoning?
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The only thing I knew was that I needed to flesh it out.
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And I remember, like I said, I keep thinking potassium for some reason.
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But I was like, there's some substance that helps flush it out, like the IV line.
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I just remember, I don't know where I remember that from, but I'm like, I need something,
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something to flush this out.
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I can't, I could be totally wrong.
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If there's any doctors listening to this, yeah, I'm not a doctor.
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I don't know anything about it.
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I just remember hearing about potassium at one point.
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Well, they can email Eric at roundtripdesk.com and give me the real medical side of this
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whole thing.
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How many oysters did you eat and what was wrong with them?
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So it was the summer of 22.
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And I guess they had a really bad red tide problem in that part of South Carolina.
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I remember hearing about it.
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Didn't really think much of it when I first got there.
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I don't know if it was that or maybe something else, something else I ingested.
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That's just a likely culprit because it's been responsible for deaths before.
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And that's what we think.
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I still get screened from the local medical treatment facility over here at the local
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base, you know, our little base that's out here.
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And they're just making sure that, like, my liver and kidney functions are still good.
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I had elevated, it was ATZ levels and a few other things from the aftermath.
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That's my, basically, it went through my organs pretty bad.
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And then they were trying to monitor that.
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Yeah.
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Going back to the second experience that happened in the ambulance, and it sounded very similar
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to the first one.
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Was it almost identical?
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Did you feel like the same people were there?
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Was the voice the same?
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So it's like, I know it's going to sound weird, but it's like the same door was there.
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Like, you know, you have reality that you and I can see, that we can touch, that we
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can feel.
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And this time it went faster.
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It's like I dropped into it a lot faster.
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So instead of fading away like I did on the bed the first time, this time it was, I felt
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fine, everything was hurting.
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My nerves were definitely being injured.
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And pain I've never felt before, you know, this absolutely horrific pain.
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I was like, basically being slapped down, so to speak, into another reality I almost
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felt like, like basically being slapped away from life.
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And it was that sudden, it was pretty quick.
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Apparently I was, that was convulsing.
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So I'm pretty sure that's a limbs fighting for oxygen again.
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But this time, you know, I could actually hear the heart monitor and I heard the flatline.
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I could feel the cold in my chest and all of a sudden I was like being slapped down.
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Again, the familiar, I wouldn't say you couldn't really see them, but they were familiar shapes
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or shadows of relatives telling me, like I said, no, go back, go back.
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Then that's when I turned around and, you know, they always told, you know, they're
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telling me, no, not your time, go back.
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And I remember I turned, I felt like I turned around and I basically forced myself back.
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I was angry.
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That's when I sat up.
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And the poor kid, the poor paramedic, I find it so fascinating that every NDE is different.
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I've talked to a number of people who in a situation sort of similar to yours, they
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ended up being outside their body and looking down at what was happening with the doctors
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and the paddles and those kinds of things.
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But you were, it doesn't sound like that happened to you.
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Like you were more in your body because you were feeling different things with your body
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at the same time, right?
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Sort of.
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I was in my body, but like the only time I knew that things were bad is whenever I wasn't
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hurting, but there was no pain.
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And that's when I, that's when I kind of thought to myself, oh God, I'm screwed, you know,
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whenever, and when everything was not hurting.
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And then I'd come back and the first time and everything hurt again.
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I'm kind of like, you know, there's a saying if you're, if you're in an airborne unit in
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the army, it's that, you know, if you hit, if you hit and everything hurts, that's good.
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It means you're alive.
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Like pain is good.
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It means you're still alive.
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Yeah.
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The second time it was much faster and it felt almost like being slapped down.
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Like it wasn't the falling away feeling.
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It was like a sudden slap.
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And I was gone for a long, I don't know how long.
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Were they able to explain to you how your heart restarted?
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No.
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And I don't recall when it actually started again.
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I remember when I sat up, it was, it was going, but it was elevated.
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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So physically, what happened to you next?
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Did they get you to the hospital and then everything was hunky-dory or what kind of process
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did you go through?
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They got me to the hospital and I remember somewhere in between, I remember they gave
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me something where finally everything stopped hurting and I was in and out of, you know,
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it's, I had not any sleep.
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They just, you know, flew on a plane from Colorado to South Carolina that day prior.
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You know, I didn't have any sleep.
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I was tired.
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I remember that I kept fading in and out.
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But at one point I was, I thought I was awake and then I kind of faded out and came back.
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My wife's there.
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All right.
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So tell me what happened when you got to the hospital and how long did it take you to
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recover?
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It was pretty quick.
490
00:24:13,120 --> 00:24:18,760
I would say that next morning, probably about, I remember it was like nine or 10, they released
491
00:24:18,760 --> 00:24:19,760
me.
492
00:24:19,760 --> 00:24:25,080
Well, that seems awfully fast to release you after your heart has stopped just a few hours
493
00:24:25,080 --> 00:24:26,080
before.
494
00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:28,720
Hey, try care.
495
00:24:28,720 --> 00:24:32,120
You know, I was like, yeah, okay, they don't want to pay so much.
496
00:24:32,120 --> 00:24:35,040
I was just trying to get them out of here as fast as possible.
497
00:24:35,040 --> 00:24:40,400
And basically told me to follow up with where I was living in Colorado with the base clinic
498
00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:42,080
that was there.
499
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:47,840
And that's when they started doing the liver levels, I guess, for like liver function and
500
00:24:47,840 --> 00:24:48,840
everything else.
501
00:24:48,840 --> 00:24:52,600
I get it done like once, well, I had it done once a quarter.
502
00:24:52,600 --> 00:24:55,160
Now it's once a year is fine.
503
00:24:55,160 --> 00:24:57,720
Everything's back to pretty much normal.
504
00:24:57,720 --> 00:25:00,040
Was there some damage then up front?
505
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:01,040
Yeah.
506
00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:04,080
There was some abnormal levels and I don't remember what all they were.
507
00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:06,960
I remember one of them was like ATZ or something like that.
508
00:25:06,960 --> 00:25:09,200
ATZ levels were high.
509
00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:11,800
So there was some liver and kidney damage.
510
00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:13,480
That was for months, but it kept dropping.
511
00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:19,840
It was progressively going back down in my early 40s and I still exercise.
512
00:25:19,840 --> 00:25:23,640
So recovery is not as slow as it was.
513
00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:28,480
It's not as fast as I would have been my 20s, but it's not as slow as some people of my
514
00:25:28,480 --> 00:25:29,480
age.
515
00:25:29,480 --> 00:25:32,120
Well, I'm glad you've recovered.
516
00:25:32,120 --> 00:25:33,600
How did this affect you?
517
00:25:33,600 --> 00:25:36,960
Mentally, emotionally?
518
00:25:36,960 --> 00:25:37,960
Definitely.
519
00:25:37,960 --> 00:25:38,960
Yeah.
520
00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:46,240
We can't go through something like this and not have, you know, leave a trace on you.
521
00:25:46,240 --> 00:25:49,760
This is one of the, I was expecting, you know, military career, you know, something happens
522
00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:50,760
in the military.
523
00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:57,200
I wasn't expecting to technically be dead after I retired, but you know, there I was.
524
00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:58,400
Definitely better.
525
00:25:58,400 --> 00:25:59,400
That's one.
526
00:25:59,400 --> 00:26:05,040
Again, the exercising, trying to keep that up a bit, trying to, you know, walk where
527
00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:09,040
I could, you know, instead of drive and that type of stuff, take a bike.
528
00:26:09,040 --> 00:26:11,520
More appreciative of everything though.
529
00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:15,160
There is some weird stuff that happens.
530
00:26:15,160 --> 00:26:19,720
It's like that feeling of like, you know, when you had your relatives nearby, sometimes
531
00:26:19,720 --> 00:26:22,240
I'll know when somebody else is there.
532
00:26:22,240 --> 00:26:25,160
It's, or it feels like somebody else is there sometimes.
533
00:26:25,160 --> 00:26:32,040
Like, it's just, it's kind of hard to describe, but it's like, I'm in a room, nobody's in
534
00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:34,560
there, but I'm like, but somebody feels like they're there.
535
00:26:34,560 --> 00:26:40,200
It just feels more, I don't know, it's a weird feeling, but it feels familiar from what I
536
00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:41,200
went through.
537
00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:42,880
It had to happen here when we moved in.
538
00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:47,520
I went to go check out my son's room after the family that was here moved out.
539
00:26:47,520 --> 00:26:52,440
And not, I mean, nothing happened, but it was, felt like somebody was in the room with me.
540
00:26:52,440 --> 00:26:53,440
They weren't bad.
541
00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:57,720
It was just like, felt like if somebody else was in there too, thought that was odd.
542
00:26:57,720 --> 00:27:02,720
You know, occasionally you'll feel like, you know, you just walked by somebody and you're
543
00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:05,400
like, there's nobody there.
544
00:27:05,400 --> 00:27:07,640
Weird stuff like that.
545
00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:11,640
Another thing is, is that, like I said, it's more appreciative of everything, but that
546
00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:15,880
whole feeling of like, you know, there was familiar people there.
547
00:27:15,880 --> 00:27:20,440
You get that now whenever you walk around, you know, random places and sometimes you'll
548
00:27:20,440 --> 00:27:23,720
pass, feels like you walk past somebody, but there's nobody there.
549
00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:26,200
That's just, it's weird.
550
00:27:26,200 --> 00:27:31,400
I don't know if that was directly related to that or was it, you know, maybe something
551
00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:32,400
I don't know.
552
00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:36,120
Do you have more fear of death or less fear of death now?
553
00:27:36,120 --> 00:27:39,760
Uh, I don't want to die like that.
554
00:27:39,760 --> 00:27:44,920
Like I was telling you before we started the interview, if I found out in terminal condition,
555
00:27:44,920 --> 00:27:46,400
would I want to go by hypothermia?
556
00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:47,600
Yeah, probably.
557
00:27:47,600 --> 00:27:51,720
You know, I wanted to stay in Colorado and I'll probably make every effort I can to
558
00:27:51,720 --> 00:27:55,400
go back, but definitely don't want to die a poison.
559
00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:58,800
As far as death goes, that's not a fear of death.
560
00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:02,720
It's more like hate to say, but it's like, you know, it's end of the day at work and
561
00:28:02,720 --> 00:28:07,080
you're trying to get everything done and you're like, no, I can't leave yet because I have
562
00:28:07,080 --> 00:28:09,120
to get stuff done.
563
00:28:09,120 --> 00:28:14,240
So it's more like, I feel like I've got to do more with my life before I go.
564
00:28:14,240 --> 00:28:18,040
You know, basically I haven't finished my job for the day, so to speak, so I can't go
565
00:28:18,040 --> 00:28:19,040
home type of feeling.
566
00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:24,040
It's a good way to put it, especially when they told you so specifically to go back.
567
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:26,440
Yeah, I was told not my time, go back.
568
00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:29,040
I do remember one thing that was weird.
569
00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:31,880
They did say, now I know I have my older daughter there.
570
00:28:31,880 --> 00:28:37,600
She's, she's in her, in her twenties, but she's older, but I've got younger kids too.
571
00:28:37,600 --> 00:28:38,960
I've got a teenage son.
572
00:28:38,960 --> 00:28:46,320
I remember specifically being told that he would be lost if, if I, if I, if I went when
573
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:50,920
I was running towards a roped, I was told by some, one of the relatives, I can't remember
574
00:28:50,920 --> 00:28:55,640
who was telling me, no, you know, my son, I'm not going to mention his name will be lost
575
00:28:55,640 --> 00:28:56,640
if you keep going.
576
00:28:56,640 --> 00:29:02,200
And I remember like, okay, you know, obviously he needs a dad, you know, in his teenage years.
577
00:29:02,200 --> 00:29:06,920
Yeah, I remember that, but it's just like, like I said, like unfinished business.
578
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:12,680
It happened so fast that it's, it was a flurry of, you know, people yelling and all like
579
00:29:12,680 --> 00:29:16,680
basically like being a kid, you know, you're a two year old and you're running, you know,
580
00:29:16,680 --> 00:29:20,840
the grocery store, you're running out towards a door, the grocery store or something while
581
00:29:20,840 --> 00:29:22,840
your parents are waiting a line type of feeling.
582
00:29:22,840 --> 00:29:23,840
Yeah.
583
00:29:23,840 --> 00:29:26,400
It was a bunch of people, you know, telling me to go back.
584
00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:28,840
Has it affected your belief in an afterlife?
585
00:29:28,840 --> 00:29:30,440
Yes, completely.
586
00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:31,440
Tell me about that.
587
00:29:31,440 --> 00:29:35,800
Like I said, I'm one of those people that unless I actually see it or I can, you know,
588
00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:38,000
account for it, I don't believe it.
589
00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:43,120
Not so much, you know, oh, I read this on these articles like, Hey, show me the data.
590
00:29:43,120 --> 00:29:46,240
Show me, you know, Hey, you know, what was your, what was your control for this?
591
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:48,800
What was your show me hard numbers?
592
00:29:48,800 --> 00:29:51,600
I was a hard numbers type of person.
593
00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:55,280
Definitely feels like there's more to it than we think.
594
00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:59,400
There's more, more around this than we're aware of.
595
00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:04,160
And like I said, that whole feeling of like I just walks by somebody or somebody's here
596
00:30:04,160 --> 00:30:06,040
with me type of thing.
597
00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:10,040
It's just to become, I wouldn't say more sensitive to it, but you notice it more.
598
00:30:10,040 --> 00:30:12,320
It's like, Oh, there's that familiar feeling again.
599
00:30:12,320 --> 00:30:13,960
You know, it's like somebody's there.
600
00:30:13,960 --> 00:30:19,160
I don't want to say everybody's like, Oh, go and I'm like, Well, you know, that might
601
00:30:19,160 --> 00:30:20,840
be a possibility at this point.
602
00:30:20,840 --> 00:30:25,440
I mean, you can kind of hear like when somebody walks by type of thing that that absence of
603
00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:30,440
sound for a split second, and you just, you notice it more.
604
00:30:30,440 --> 00:30:32,040
It's weird on how that works.
605
00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:34,720
But I don't, I don't fear things.
606
00:30:34,720 --> 00:30:39,200
I don't, you know, people go into dark, scary places and they're scared.
607
00:30:39,200 --> 00:30:41,440
And I'm like, No, I don't have a fear of that anymore.
608
00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:46,520
I mean, people, people are, of course, you know, can be, you know, monsters themselves.
609
00:30:46,520 --> 00:30:49,960
So I fear people more than I do anything scary.
610
00:30:49,960 --> 00:30:53,160
So, you know, like a walk through a graveyard in middle of the night when it's dead quiet
611
00:30:53,160 --> 00:30:56,000
and no, okay, well, people here at least at peace.
612
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:57,840
How many people have you shared this with?
613
00:30:57,840 --> 00:31:02,240
Oh, the whole reason I wanted to get it out was to get it out.
614
00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:03,720
My wife doesn't like talking about it.
615
00:31:03,720 --> 00:31:10,000
Yeah, just my, my, I have two sisters and middle sister and a younger sister, both younger
616
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:14,800
than me and talk to my middle sister about it.
617
00:31:14,800 --> 00:31:18,640
And then of course my wife, but she's, she doesn't like to be reminded of the incident
618
00:31:18,640 --> 00:31:20,400
with, you know, good, good reason.
619
00:31:20,400 --> 00:31:24,760
You know, she was there watching me die, you know, in a bed.
620
00:31:24,760 --> 00:31:29,840
But other than that, that's it, I did, I did talk a little bit about it to my son when
621
00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:35,400
he was having, having deep depression and was talking about death.
622
00:31:35,400 --> 00:31:40,920
And I finally let him know that, hey, you know, for me, it was painful, you know, do
623
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:42,440
I want to go like that?
624
00:31:42,440 --> 00:31:46,480
No, I don't want to, you know, life is good, you know, I want to keep living as long as
625
00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:50,440
possible, but I didn't, I didn't go into detail about it.
626
00:31:50,440 --> 00:31:54,640
I kind of helped him like, okay, well, yeah, there's more to life than just what I'm dealing
627
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:56,200
with as a teenager.
628
00:31:56,200 --> 00:32:00,240
I appreciate you trusting us enough to share with us here today.
629
00:32:00,240 --> 00:32:02,240
And I hope it's been good for you.
630
00:32:02,240 --> 00:32:05,240
I hope it's a little therapeutic in a way.
631
00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:08,400
And is there anything else that you want to share with our listeners about this whole
632
00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:09,400
thing?
633
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:14,480
Yeah, so it's weird because I was told, you know, not your time yet, basically like you've
634
00:32:14,480 --> 00:32:16,800
got stuff to do.
635
00:32:16,800 --> 00:32:21,600
Exactly one year to the day I came here to Belgium to work with my current job exactly
636
00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:26,400
one year to the day, and now I'm here, you know, life's been good since we got here at
637
00:32:26,400 --> 00:32:27,400
schools better.
638
00:32:27,400 --> 00:32:30,000
And the job I have is absolutely great.
639
00:32:30,000 --> 00:32:33,080
It's 100%, you know, hey, it's individual effort.
640
00:32:33,080 --> 00:32:34,080
It's a good job.
641
00:32:34,080 --> 00:32:39,080
Like I said, it was kind of weird that exactly to one day that since he isn't in half and
642
00:32:39,080 --> 00:32:40,080
I'm here.
643
00:32:40,080 --> 00:32:45,320
So if there was something else for you to do, and you've already done it, is that a little
644
00:32:45,320 --> 00:32:46,320
bit scary?
645
00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:47,320
Not really.
646
00:32:47,320 --> 00:32:51,360
I think, I think I'll know whenever, I think I'll know whenever I'm done.
647
00:32:51,360 --> 00:32:54,120
I still feel like there's more to go.
648
00:32:54,120 --> 00:32:55,120
I'm sure there is.
649
00:32:55,120 --> 00:32:57,000
I'm sure you have a lot more to do.
650
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,760
Sounds like you have a great family and a great life over there.
651
00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:03,280
So anyway, Pat, thanks so much for being on the show with us.
652
00:33:03,280 --> 00:33:04,280
Really appreciate it.
653
00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:05,280
Thank you.
654
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:08,760
Thank you for having me.
655
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,400
Thank you so much for listening.
656
00:33:10,400 --> 00:33:16,520
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657
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:20,800
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658
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659
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