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April 8, 2024

Ryan Is Attacked Outside British Pub, Leads to NDE

Ryan Is Attacked Outside British Pub, Leads to NDE
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Ryan Nurse is a Brit currently living in Central America. When he was 18, he and some friends were attacked and beaten outside a neighborhood pub.

Ryan was left with a TBI (traumatic brain injury) that left him at death's door. Emergency brain surgery was performed and he was put in a medically induced coma. Shortly before waking up from his coma, Ryan had a near death experience that forever changed his life.

Ryan was an atheist that "didn't believe in anything." Now he is full of forgiveness, optimism, and knows that he has a purpose in life.

In this episode you will hear about Ryan's NDE, how he has changed, and valuable lessons on forgiveness, resentment, and pain. He is full of energy and does a great job telling his unusual story!

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Transcript
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From the time that they pronounced me deaf was a good 45 minutes.

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They cut my clothes and then they paddled my heart, my heart had stopped.

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And I could see people screaming and crying, but I didn't realize that was actually my

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physical body because I was somewhere else.

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The only thing that I could feel, if you could imagine, absolute love and peace, there wasn't

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anything else to be felt.

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I was greeted by people I'd known in the past.

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I'm back home again.

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Incredibly safe and felt at home.

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Welcome, welcome to Roundtrip Death, everybody, and welcome to our special guest, Ryan Nurse.

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How are you this morning, Ryan?

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I am very well.

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Thank you, my friend.

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And thank you so much for having me.

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How are you?

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I'm doing great today.

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It is a beautiful, sunny, almost spring-like, cold, but sort of spring-like day here in

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the mountains of Utah, but you're in a very different environment.

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Tell everybody where you live and what you're doing there.

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So I've actually been living in almost every country now from Mexico down to Brazil and

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back up.

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I'm actually based here in Colombia right now.

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I've been living in Colombia for the last five months, and I will actually be here in

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Medellin where I currently am now for one more week before I head to Venezuela.

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Okay.

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You do not have a Central American accent.

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Where are you from?

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So I'm from England, sort of Southeast England on the outskirts of London.

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Okay.

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But why Central America?

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What are you doing there?

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So look, I always listen to my intuition.

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And back in 2021, it was almost like I had a call in to go to Latin America, something

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which just kept telling me, go to Mexico, go to Mexico.

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And one morning I sort of felt like my life had almost flatlined, and in life, if we're

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not growing, I believe we're dying.

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So I said, I need to really push myself so far out of my comfort zone and do something

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sort of big and bold.

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And with that being said, I literally picked up my credit card.

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I booked one-way ticket to Mexico, and I literally left the very next week and haven't looked

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back since.

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I went from Mexico, every country down from Mexico, Central America, made my way all the

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way down to Brazil.

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And then I started to come back up and, yeah, I'm back here in Colombia right now.

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Well, living the dream, love to hear about it.

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By the way, just a little interjection for everybody listening.

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The internet service in Colombia isn't always as fast as what we're used to.

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Ryan's voice is going in and out slightly.

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Please put up with it.

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It will be worth it because his story is awesome.

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So let's jump right in if you don't mind.

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You had, oh, wow, a horrific thing happen to you.

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And you can go into as much or little detail as you're comfortable with, Ryan.

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But let's go back just a few years.

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You were in the UK.

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What happened on this dreadful night?

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Yeah.

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So look, I'm happy to talk about all of it.

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And thank you as well for bearing with me with the sound regarding, obviously, the Wi-Fi,

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because it is Colombia and it is a bit of a fee.

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But you said something horrific.

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And obviously what happened to me was absolutely horrendous.

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And mainly for my family, it was actually even worse.

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Because for me, I was just sort of laying there.

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But the choices, the decisions and the things that my family had to go was absolutely, yeah,

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unimaginable.

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But for me, also, now looking back, you know, I realize that sometimes your most profound

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periods of pain can actually also turn out to be your greatest gifts of growth.

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So let me talk to you about what actually happened to me on this night.

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So back in 2011, as an 18-year-old boy, there was this one specific nightclub that was maybe

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five to 10 minutes maximum away from where I lived.

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And me and my friends would always go to this nightclub, sometimes even three times a week.

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That's how local it was.

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And that's how much we enjoyed it.

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We knew everybody there.

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So one weekend, we decided to go to the nightclub, as we usually did.

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But we noticed that there was this group of guys there that were sort of like outsiders.

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They wasn't from, say, the normal surroundings, like the normal area, because we would have

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known them and we didn't know them.

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And these guys looked like they were out to cause trouble this night.

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So we were just sort of dancing.

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We were just planting.

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And the music was pumping.

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The drinks were flowing.

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And we were literally dancing the night away.

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But then these guys decided to have an argument with some of our older friends.

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And obviously us younger guys and some girls there as well, we were sort of just watching

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it all unfold.

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And nothing really happened.

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It was just a bit of pushing and shoving and a bit of sort of shirt tugging.

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And that was it.

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It got broken up and everything was fine, what we thought.

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And a few hours later, me and my friends decided to leave the club and we got into a taxi.

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But then we got into this taxi.

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And as we started to leave the car park, we noticed that these same lads or sort of older

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guys, they come out of the club and they actually come over to our taxi and they removed us from

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our taxi.

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So bearing in mind, we were sort of 18 year old guys, we were like boys basically.

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And they're 26, 27, 28.

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So they're sort of like men compared to us.

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And they literally said, this is our taxi.

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And they literally pulled us out of the taxi.

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So with that being said, there was a bit of say disagreement, I guess.

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And we was obviously saying that it was our taxi.

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And then all of a sudden they're saying that they booked it first.

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And then the driver turned and sort of sided with them, which we couldn't really believe.

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And then things started to make sense, obviously, as we go through the story.

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But we decided it'd be wise to get into a separate taxi to obviously make it back to

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the safety of our parents' homes.

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So we got into the taxi, we left the car park, we turned left, and then we turned left again

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onto what is a dark, unlit road.

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So as we're driving down this road, obviously things are pitch black.

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But then we noticed the same bright white headlights of that vehicle that we just got

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distracted from filled the whole interior of our taxi.

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And out of nowhere, this loud, angry voice started shouting for our driver's walkie-talkie

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demanding that we pull over.

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So our driver began to slow the vehicle.

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And he started to indicate, and he started to stop.

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And he pulled it up onto the path.

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So we started saying to the driver, like, what are you doing?

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And why are you stopping?

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Like, what's the reason for you for stopping?

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It was just silence.

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He didn't say a single word.

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So me and my friends were just looking at each other.

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And we was confused.

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We didn't have a clue what was going on.

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And as the driver stopped, he turned the vehicle off.

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And that same vehicle with those angry men in pulled up behind us and they switched their

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lights off.

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So those two drivers must have known each other.

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Possibly.

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Possibly.

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You know, because it's quite a small local area, a lot of the drivers do know each other.

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A lot of the people know each other as well.

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So with this being said, our driver was just sat there and his car pulled up behind us,

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switched his lights off.

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And then there was this sort of eerie sound of silence because me and my friends, we were

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all looking at each other thinking, what happens now?

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What happens next?

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Yeah.

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You don't dare get out.

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So no, we were just sat there just pleading with our driver, just asking him, like, just

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go, like, leave.

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There's nothing, not doing anything.

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He didn't say a word, he didn't even turn around.

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And it's literally something out of nowhere.

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There was this really loud knock on the passenger front window to which my friend was sat in

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that seat.

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So he opened the window and he started to ask, what's the problem?

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What is the issue?

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But as soon as he opened the window, he began to get punched through the window by one of

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the guys.

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So me and my friends all panicked and we started to open our doors to try and stop this madness

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from happening.

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As I opened my door, I was greeted with the same fist.

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I didn't even have a chance to take my seatbelt off and I was glued to the back of my seat

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like a sitting duck.

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And this guy was just pummeling in the side of my head over and over again.

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It was like 10, 20, 30 times.

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It just kept going on and on and on.

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It was like a hammer drill to the head.

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It just didn't stop.

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I was panicking, obviously.

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I was trying to get my buckle undone because of the sheer pressure and the force and the

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panic.

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The seatbelt was doing what a seatbelt should do, which was to lock.

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And I couldn't get the buckle undone.

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So bearing in mind, I'm getting pummeled in the side of my head by this guy and I'm trying

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to get my belt undone and it just wouldn't undo.

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And as the guys just pounded my head in, at one moment, the only thought that went through

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my mind said, this is how you're going to die.

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Like, Ryan, this is how you're going to die.

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Ryan, you need to get the belt undone.

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You need to get the belt undone.

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And I was pushing it as hard as I possibly can and then pop.

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It went.

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And it was this pressure, just relief from my body.

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We lost you for just a second.

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Was this you said a voice in your head?

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Yeah.

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So I had a voice in my head just telling me, this is how you are going to die.

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And I honestly believed in that moment I was going to die.

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The force that this guy was punching me with, it was unbelievable.

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It was almost like he was hitting me with a baseball bat.

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It was that hard.

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And I just thought, I'm not going to get out of this taxi alive.

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But I did.

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I popped the buckle.

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I released the pressure and I managed to get out of the driver's rear door.

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So I opened the door and as I sort of popped the buckle, the punching stopped.

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I got out of this door and I just run down the side road because I knew the area quite

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well.

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I run down the side road and I sort of just hid in a bush.

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And as I hid in the bush, I called a friend.

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For whatever reason, I just didn't want swinger calling the paramedics or the police.

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I just thought I'll ring my friend because he lives closed and he's with his girlfriend.

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They have a car and they can come and pick me up.

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Because in that moment, I just wanted to get back to the safety of my parents' home.

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I just wanted to go to bed.

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So I called my friend and he said he's going to be there in any moment.

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And I was just hiding in this bush, panicking.

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Before you go on, can I just ask how many other people were in the car and what was happening

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to them?

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So what it was, it was me, two of my younger guy friends and one of our girlfriends who

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was a little bit older than us.

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So there was me, two guys and one girl, so four of us.

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But bearing in mind, when I got out of the taxi, I looked back to all the madness that

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was unfolding.

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And I see my guy friends getting beaten up by the guys.

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I see my girl friend of ours, she was getting beaten up by the guys as well.

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And these guys, these five guys were all attacking us.

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Bearing in mind one of them is a taxi driver.

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He was also attacking my friends as well.

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And I just see this madness unfolding.

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And I couldn't believe it was like something of a movie.

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So I just had to call for help.

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I had to call for someone to come and pick us up straight away.

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So I run down this side road and I just thought, I need to ring my friend because I know they

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have a car and they can come and get us so quick.

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So I just called my friend, but my heavy head was so, it was just spinning round and round.

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It was like this gyroscopic feeling that was just going round and round and round.

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I could barely keep my head up.

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And I was just mumbling these words to my friend like, you need to pick us up now.

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And a little bit of time went past.

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I don't really know how long, maybe five or 10 minutes went past.

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And my friend, they arrived in the car, my friend and his girlfriend, they arrived in

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the car and they waved me and said, come on, get in, get in.

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So I run and I get into the car and we actually went back the same way of where the attack

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was.

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So we had to go and pick up another, another girl, another lady from the car park.

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So as we drive back, nobody was there.

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It all stopped.

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And my heavy head was just spinning round and round.

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And we picked up this other friend of ours and she said, look, you need to get this guy

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to hospital.

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Like you need to take this boy to hospital now.

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And my heavy head was just falling down.

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But I couldn't keep it up.

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And at one point I just, I rested it on the window ledge to try and hold it up.

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But even then, every bump that we went over in the car, my head just fell down.

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Now, I remember my friend said to me, like, we need to take you to hospital now.

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And I said, no, like I just want my bed.

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I need to go back home.

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And he was saying, look, Ryan, we need to take you to hospital.

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Like, please let us take you.

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And I just literally forced him and pleaded with him to take me back to my parents' home.

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And he did.

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And I remember just as we, as we pulled up outside my parents' house, he said, like,

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please, please, please ring me in the morning and make sure you're okay.

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And I said, yes, everything's going to be fine in the morning.

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Because in that moment, I just believed that I just had a few drinks.

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I've been beaten up and I'll be perfect in the morning.

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I'll be back to normal.

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And then I get out of the car and I stumbled up the driveway to my parents' home.

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I put my hand on the handle.

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I opened the door and I just walked through.

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And after that, I don't remember a single thing.

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So now I can only speak to you from my parents' point of view.

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Okay.

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And while they must have been terrified, what time in the morning was this?

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So this was around, from my memory, my mom told me around 5 a.m. in the morning.

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So this is now on a Sunday morning, 5 a.m.

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Okay.

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And I was very, very worried.

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My mom, she always used to wait up for us kids.

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Like, who is going on a night out?

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She'd be there at the top of the stairs waiting until we got home.

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This night, she knew something wasn't right, quite right, because it was 5 a.m.

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Never once did I get home at 5 a.m.

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Never.

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The latest probably was around 4 a.m.

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And this is like, ever.

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This is like a late, late night.

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Most of the nights, it was between 3 and half, 3.

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I'd get back.

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My mom knew the times I'd get back, but this night, it was later than usual.

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And apparently, I just walked up the stairs and I walked past her.

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She said to me, Ryan, you're okay.

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Like, is everything okay?

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Where have you been?

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And I just had this blank look on my face and I just walked right past her.

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And then what did I do?

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I took my clothes off and I folded them up as I usually did.

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I put them nice and neatly down at the side of my bed and I got into bed.

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My mom was watching me and I wasn't even looking at her.

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And I just got into bed and I closed my eyes.

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So as the minutes and the hours sort of went by, she was monitoring me the whole time because

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she knew something wasn't right.

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She said that was snoring, like really, really loudly snoring.

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It wasn't normal for me.

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And then suddenly I started vomiting this jet black, almost projectile vomit.

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So my mom comes in and saying, like, what's happening, Ryan?

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And no response.

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Just this vomit just kept coming out and out of my mouth.

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She goes and sees my dad and says, look, something's really wrong with Ryan.

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He's vomiting this jet black vomit.

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But look, my dad being my dad, like my dad is my best friend.

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And my dad being my dad just said to my mom, he just had way too much to drink.

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He's probably been on these black Zambuca shots and he's thought he's cool with his

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friends and he's done all these black Zambuca.

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They probably bought a bottle and done it between them.

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It'd be fine in the morning.

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Don't worry, it'd be fine.

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Just give him a few hours.

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He'll wake up, he'll be fine.

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But my mom, you know, with those maternal instincts, knew that her son wasn't right,

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knew that something was really wrong.

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So she would just monitor me again and again and again.

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And I started vomiting once more.

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This jet black vomit just kept coming out of my mouth.

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And bearing in mind my younger brother, who was around nine years old at the time, he

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was in that same bedroom with me on the top of the bunk bed, looking, watching me.

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Just looking at his brother, just thinking, what is happening?

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Like, you've never seen anything like this before.

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And then thankfully for me, my older brother gets a call from a friend to say, how is Ryan

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doing?

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Is everything okay?

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Bearing in mind my brother knows nothing that's happening.

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He said, why wouldn't Ryan be okay?

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And then this friend told my brother, they had a fight.

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It was this big argument and ended up getting beaten up on the way home.

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So bearing in mind, this has just happened, my older brother was straight on the phone

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to my mom and dad saying, like, you need to wake Ryan up now.

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Like, make sure he's Ryan's okay.

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I wake him up.

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So my parents rush into the room saying, Ryan, wake up, are you okay?

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I was completely unresponsive.

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So with that being said, the paramedics were called and there was multiple ambulances outside

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of my house.

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And my dad said it was like all hell broke loose.

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Like there was paramedics just come rushing up into my bedroom and there was many, many

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paramedics coming into my room.

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There was walkie talkies.

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There was sirens.

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There was beeping.

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There was just noises that my parents never heard before.

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There was like a TV series or a documentary or a movie.

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It was crazy.

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Before you know it, they had me on that stretcher.

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They took me downstairs and they got me into the back of the ambulance.

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So my dad stayed at home to look after my younger brother and the rest of my siblings.

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My mom went into a separate ambulance, followed me in pursuit.

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And we arrived at the first hospital, which is maybe 40 minutes to an hour away.

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And obviously my mom arrived in the separate ambulance, she said, when I arrived, they

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had already taken me in.

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So my mom's now all alone in the hospital looking for answers, trying to figure out what had

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happened to her son.

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So she was sat there in that waiting room, confused, didn't know what was going on.

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As the paramedics and the doctors and nurses come by, my mom's just pleading with them,

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like please tell me some answers.

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Like where is my son?

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What's happening?

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They said they don't know.

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Nothing.

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And as the time goes by, my mom tells me she was sat there, that she hears a voice down

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the corridor.

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She starts smiling, she starts being happy and feeling good.

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She heard my voice down that corridor.

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This huge sense of relief was just like, oh my God, he's OK.

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So she follows that voice and she just doesn't know where she's going.

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She's walking down this corridor, just looking for the voice, listening, listening, listening.

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She hears it coming from the dorm.

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So she goes into that room and the voice wasn't mine.

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It was another boy and it wasn't my voice.

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So bearing in mind, my mom is now up here and she's excited, she's happy.

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So she gets dropped straight back down to earth to realize that it wasn't her son.

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So she goes back to that waiting room and again, every doctor, every nurse that comes

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by, she asks them, where is my son?

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His name's Ryan Nurse.

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Where is he?

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Like what's happening to him?

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Nothing.

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And then suddenly a doctor, a nurse comes out and says to my mom, look, we've prepared

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Ryan, we've prepared him ready for an operation.

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He needs to go into surgery.

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We need to take him by air ambulance to a specialist hospital.

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He needs an emergency brain operation right now.

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So bearing in mind, I was just laying in my bed a few hours before and my mom's being

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told, your son needs an emergency brain operation.

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Yeah, this is the very first thing that she's heard about your condition, right?

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She doesn't know what happened.

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No, any parent listening out there, just imagine if that was your son, for instance.

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How would you feel in this moment?

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Wow, how terrifying.

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So my mom is just like, what is going on?

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Because there's no signs of bleeding, there's no blood, no bruising, no sign of trauma at

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all.

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So my mom's saying, how can this happen?

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Look, they didn't take me by air ambulance, by helicopter.

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They actually took me in the ambulance, but they rushed me there on the blue lights.

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And as they sort of cut me out into the ambulance, my dad just actually arrived in the car.

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So as my ambulance leaves with me in it, my parents obviously follow in their car in

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pursuit to try and obviously keep up with us.

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So I obviously make it to the hospital way before my parents.

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And then my parents said that they arrived there around sort of 4, 5 p.m., I believe,

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or maybe a little bit earlier, actually, because what happens when my parents arrived?

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They didn't have a clue where I was.

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I just went in for this emergency operation.

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So my dad and my mom are asking every doctor, every nurse, every receptionist, where's my

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son, his name's Ryan Nurse, where is he?

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We don't know, we don't know where this guy is.

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They were going around for hours, my dad is stressing out, he's screaming, he's shouting

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at people, asking for answers.

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Nobody knows.

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So bear in mind, my parents are in this hospital, that is huge.

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And they just up and down the stairs asking every single person they see.

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And then finally, they located me and the operation was done.

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And look, my parents said around 6 p.m., they got to see me and I was laying there in that

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intensive care unit on a large support machine because I had to be rushed into hospital because

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I suffered from a fractured skull and a blood clot due to a bleed on the brain.

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I had to have that an emergency brain operation because all that stuff that was going on internally,

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if that wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have survived.

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They told my parents when they finally got to see me that the severity of my injuries

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was so bad that if they would have waited any longer, I would have died at home in that

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bed because the blood was just pouring out into my skull and it was just pushing my brain

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down my spine because there was no way for it to go.

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So just imagine that, any parents that are listening.

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I can't even imagine.

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I have adult children and that just is terrifying.

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Children and 18s barely an adult.

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Holy cow.

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We haven't even talked about near-death experience yet.

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I feel like I need to take a deep breath after that.

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That's exciting and terrifying and like I said, horrific.

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Okay, so we're going to come back to all the physical stuff that happened and your recovery

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from this.

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In a nutshell, I believe the doctors at this point after surgery put you in an induced coma,

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correct?

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Yes, that's correct.

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Okay.

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And is this where you felt like you had a near-death experience?

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Yes.

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So I was in induced coma straight away on the first day, obviously.

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When the doctors told my parents, look, he's never going to wake up from this.

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Go and tell your friend's family.

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He's never going to wake up.

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On the third day, they told my parents again, because there's zero brain activity, you need

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to pull the plug.

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And that's when my dad saved my life because my dad said no way, which allowed them to

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keep it on for a few more days.

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And in total, I was in that induced coma for one week.

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The day they reduced the patient to try and bring me out of the coma, my lungs weren't

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functioning by themselves.

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So I had to be put straight back into the coma.

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And again, they were telling my parents, like, if he ever comes through from this, if he

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ever wakes up, he will never walk or talk again and will be in a vegetative state for the

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rest of his life.

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My parents insisted they keep it on.

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And they did.

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And then the second time, they reduced the patient and my lungs, I started to function

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by myself.

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But bearing in mind, I didn't just wake up, open my eyes and start to talk to people.

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It was just a mind on the machine to say that my lungs were working.

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But then this is when I believe when things started happening and when I actually experienced

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this out of body experience, just before actually waking up back in the real world, like back

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on Earth, when I actually physically opened my eyes and saw people, like real people,

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I actually was gifted an out of body experience.

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And I'm going to explain this now.

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And I truly believe that we as humans don't really know the true meaning of life.

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And when we do is when we actually experience death.

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And let me talk to you about why I believe that.

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So in this out of body experience, I'm going to talk a little bit about when I was a child,

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just for a couple of seconds here, because we all hear these things online in newspapers,

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for instance, it used to be on the television.

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Like people see these out of body experience and something traumatic happens in their lives.

467
00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:47,320
And what happens?

468
00:23:47,320 --> 00:23:51,200
They go through these out of body experience where they might see a bright light or they

469
00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:54,800
might see themselves or their families or their whole life might unfold in front of

470
00:23:54,800 --> 00:23:55,800
their eyes.

471
00:23:55,800 --> 00:24:00,000
And as much as these were really sort of cool stories when I was a child, we used to talk

472
00:24:00,000 --> 00:24:01,840
about these things in the playground at school.

473
00:24:01,840 --> 00:24:06,600
And we all had our own ideas of what it could be when you die, for instance.

474
00:24:06,600 --> 00:24:08,240
And I never believed in any of that.

475
00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:11,320
I was such an atheist, like I never believed in a God.

476
00:24:11,320 --> 00:24:12,720
And I just didn't believe in anything.

477
00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:16,080
It was just like, we are born, we die, and then that is it.

478
00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:21,760
But now I truly believe that something or someone knows a lot more than we know.

479
00:24:21,760 --> 00:24:23,280
And what happens to us after?

480
00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:27,320
I don't know, but you can make your own opinion from my own story.

481
00:24:27,320 --> 00:24:32,240
But for me, I was in that out of body experience and let me talk to you about it now.

482
00:24:32,240 --> 00:24:35,400
So this is now in the out of body experience.

483
00:24:35,400 --> 00:24:40,600
I remember looking down at myself through the eyes of someone or something else, whether

484
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:43,520
it's my creator, my maker, I don't really know.

485
00:24:43,520 --> 00:24:48,400
But I was looking down at me for a set of someone else's eyes.

486
00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:53,080
And I was looking down at me laying there in that hospital bed.

487
00:24:53,080 --> 00:24:54,080
And I was outside.

488
00:24:54,080 --> 00:24:59,640
And there was these two huge, big black ladies, and they were pushing me on this hospital

489
00:24:59,640 --> 00:25:00,760
bed.

490
00:25:00,760 --> 00:25:02,880
And we're going down this cobbled street.

491
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:06,080
And I saw this whole thing unfold and it was so picture perfect.

492
00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:08,560
It was like 5K, but better.

493
00:25:08,560 --> 00:25:11,080
It was so pristine, this experience.

494
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:15,680
And everything was just bright and it was just crystal clear clarity and the quality

495
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:16,680
was insane.

496
00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:20,360
And I was just watching myself being pushed down this cobbled street.

497
00:25:20,360 --> 00:25:24,240
And these two black ladies are just talking in this unknown language.

498
00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:27,240
Like it wasn't French, it wasn't Spanish, it wasn't Portuguese.

499
00:25:27,240 --> 00:25:28,240
It wasn't English.

500
00:25:28,240 --> 00:25:31,280
It was just a language that I didn't have a clue what it was.

501
00:25:31,280 --> 00:25:33,680
I never heard anything like it before.

502
00:25:33,680 --> 00:25:35,600
I didn't have a clue what they were saying.

503
00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:36,600
But they were just talking.

504
00:25:36,600 --> 00:25:41,080
And it wasn't like they were arguing, but they were having like a heated conversation.

505
00:25:41,080 --> 00:25:43,480
I'm just trying to figure out what they're saying.

506
00:25:43,480 --> 00:25:45,120
I didn't know.

507
00:25:45,120 --> 00:25:47,160
And they're pushing me down this cobbled street.

508
00:25:47,160 --> 00:25:51,560
And because it's cobbled, the bed that I'm on is like bumping.

509
00:25:51,560 --> 00:25:56,240
And as it's bumping, me, my body was sort of sliding down the bed.

510
00:25:56,240 --> 00:26:01,120
And as we're going down this street, it's going down and down and down.

511
00:26:01,120 --> 00:26:02,440
And the bed is just bumping and bumping.

512
00:26:02,440 --> 00:26:05,640
And my body is slowly juddering down this bed.

513
00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:09,760
And I just hear this voice whispering in my ear, wherever my ear is, but these eyes and

514
00:26:09,760 --> 00:26:14,800
here, his voice is whispering saying, I just kept saying, they're going to drop him.

515
00:26:14,800 --> 00:26:16,680
They're going to drop him.

516
00:26:16,680 --> 00:26:19,080
And I just believe that they're going to drop me off the end of the bed.

517
00:26:19,080 --> 00:26:23,680
And as my legs started to come off the end of the bed, we made this sharp left turn.

518
00:26:23,680 --> 00:26:29,920
But what I can only say is this giant set of glass sliding doors into what seemed to

519
00:26:29,920 --> 00:26:34,480
be like a huge reception area.

520
00:26:34,480 --> 00:26:38,560
And we go in there and I'm watching and they're pushing me towards this desk, this huge sort

521
00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:39,560
of rounded desk.

522
00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:40,720
There's a lady on this desk.

523
00:26:40,720 --> 00:26:42,240
And we're heading towards this lady.

524
00:26:42,240 --> 00:26:45,040
And there's many people in this reception area.

525
00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:48,640
And they're all just talking in this unknown language.

526
00:26:48,640 --> 00:26:53,040
And as we go in towards this lady at the desk, she's pointing towards her left.

527
00:26:53,040 --> 00:26:55,440
What is just a brick wall?

528
00:26:55,440 --> 00:26:56,560
And we're heading towards her.

529
00:26:56,560 --> 00:26:58,800
So now it's our right.

530
00:26:58,800 --> 00:27:03,920
So as these ladies are pushing me on the bed towards the lady at the reception, we make

531
00:27:03,920 --> 00:27:06,600
a sharp right hand turn, which is her left.

532
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:11,000
And as we make that turn, these eyes that I'm watching this experience through, I sort

533
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:14,080
of get transitioned to the other side of the reception.

534
00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:17,520
And now I'm sort of hovering over what I'm doing.

535
00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:20,040
I'm here in the other side of the reception.

536
00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:22,160
And now I'm looking across the reception.

537
00:27:22,160 --> 00:27:24,680
These two ladies are now pushing me towards the brick wall.

538
00:27:24,680 --> 00:27:27,080
And I'm thinking, what's going to happen now?

539
00:27:27,080 --> 00:27:29,480
Because there's no way for them to go.

540
00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:33,280
And they're getting faster and faster and faster.

541
00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:34,640
And they're not going anywhere.

542
00:27:34,640 --> 00:27:39,400
But at one point, it gets so fast, but they're barely moving.

543
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:43,760
Like, I can't explain it because the things are just getting so fast, but they're not

544
00:27:43,760 --> 00:27:44,760
going anywhere.

545
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:51,440
But as I'm watching this through these different set of eyes, I'm bracing myself.

546
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:55,440
Because I can just tell that that hospital bed with me on it is going to hit the brick

547
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:56,440
wall.

548
00:27:56,440 --> 00:27:59,440
So I'm bracing myself.

549
00:27:59,440 --> 00:28:03,640
And as the time goes by, I'm just waiting for the impact.

550
00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:08,360
And then out of nowhere, bam, the hospital bed, the gurney, hits the wall.

551
00:28:08,360 --> 00:28:09,960
And it goes up like this.

552
00:28:09,960 --> 00:28:14,280
And as the bed goes up, the wall opens up, almost like a giant cat flap.

553
00:28:14,280 --> 00:28:16,480
And my body just slides through.

554
00:28:16,480 --> 00:28:22,520
But as my body passes through this door, this flap, these eyes that I'm viewing this experience

555
00:28:22,520 --> 00:28:27,720
through, gets sucked straight back into my actual body, in this out of body experience.

556
00:28:27,720 --> 00:28:33,840
So now I'm back in my own body, but I'm just falling through just dark, black, nothingness.

557
00:28:33,840 --> 00:28:35,080
And I don't know where I am.

558
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:37,040
Everything is just black.

559
00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:38,040
And I'm looking around.

560
00:28:38,040 --> 00:28:39,040
I'm observing things.

561
00:28:39,040 --> 00:28:40,520
I'm thinking, where am I?

562
00:28:40,520 --> 00:28:41,520
What is this place?

563
00:28:41,520 --> 00:28:43,880
And it's just like I'm falling out of the sky.

564
00:28:43,880 --> 00:28:47,080
It's literally I'm just falling to nowhere.

565
00:28:47,080 --> 00:28:48,080
So time goes by.

566
00:28:48,080 --> 00:28:53,360
And bear in mind, in this place, there's no, no, no time, time and space doesn't exist.

567
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,120
Like, time was just forever.

568
00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:56,120
Nothing actually existed.

569
00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:59,720
I had no perception of anything in this place.

570
00:28:59,720 --> 00:29:03,120
So I'm just falling what seemed to be like forever.

571
00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:07,200
And I'm just looking everywhere up, down, looking for answers.

572
00:29:07,200 --> 00:29:11,840
And then right down there towards my left, I just see this small, glistening outline

573
00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:14,040
of a bright, white, shining square.

574
00:29:14,040 --> 00:29:16,840
I'm thinking, what is that?

575
00:29:16,840 --> 00:29:23,280
And as the time passes by, this square is getting bigger and brighter, bigger and brighter.

576
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:26,600
And I'm actually being magnetized and I'm moving towards this square.

577
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:29,360
And I'm just thinking, what is this place?

578
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:30,920
Where am I going?

579
00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:32,720
What is this square?

580
00:29:32,720 --> 00:29:34,120
I really didn't know.

581
00:29:34,120 --> 00:29:38,360
But this square is getting bigger and brighter, bigger and brighter, bigger and brighter.

582
00:29:38,360 --> 00:29:40,040
And it got so big and bright.

583
00:29:40,040 --> 00:29:43,840
At one point, the intensity of that light was shining so bright.

584
00:29:43,840 --> 00:29:46,320
It was almost like heat in my face.

585
00:29:46,320 --> 00:29:48,320
I closed my eyes.

586
00:29:48,320 --> 00:29:53,680
And the moment I closed my eyes was when I felt the soles of my feet hit.

587
00:29:53,680 --> 00:29:58,400
What I can only imagine is another wall to another cat flap or another wall to another

588
00:29:58,400 --> 00:29:59,400
dimension.

589
00:29:59,400 --> 00:30:02,400
And it was almost like I was coming down a slide in the swimming pool.

590
00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:10,320
And I sort of slid and shot out of this place and bam, I landed back in the hospital bed.

591
00:30:10,320 --> 00:30:13,920
And now I'm laying there in this place, which is bright, white.

592
00:30:13,920 --> 00:30:16,800
And it wasn't a room because there was no walls.

593
00:30:16,800 --> 00:30:17,800
There was no ceiling.

594
00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:20,640
It was just forever, just white.

595
00:30:20,640 --> 00:30:24,320
And I'm laying there and I'm now looking down at myself again through these other set of

596
00:30:24,320 --> 00:30:28,480
eyes where my body is just laying there in this bed.

597
00:30:28,480 --> 00:30:30,960
And the time goes by and I'm looking for answers.

598
00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:32,280
I'm thinking, what's going to happen next?

599
00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:33,280
What's happening now?

600
00:30:33,280 --> 00:30:38,600
And then just from behind me where I can't see, the doctors and the nurses just started

601
00:30:38,600 --> 00:30:44,000
to come in and they just started preparing me and they just started operating on my body.

602
00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:49,000
And now I'm looking down at my body and the doctors are just operating on my head.

603
00:30:49,000 --> 00:30:50,920
But look, there's no blood.

604
00:30:50,920 --> 00:30:54,440
There's no pain, which is all peace and pleasure.

605
00:30:54,440 --> 00:30:59,040
This was one of the most beautiful picture perfect, amazing things that I'd ever seen

606
00:30:59,040 --> 00:31:00,040
in my whole life.

607
00:31:00,040 --> 00:31:05,320
Doctors working on my head and they're all just talking, they're whispering in this unknown

608
00:31:05,320 --> 00:31:06,320
language.

609
00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:09,000
I'm just trying to make sense of everything.

610
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:10,000
Okay.

611
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:11,880
I've got so many questions.

612
00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:13,980
I'm going to stop you for a minute.

613
00:31:13,980 --> 00:31:18,120
And let's sort through some of this because there's a whole bunch.

614
00:31:18,120 --> 00:31:23,480
First of all, this other set of eyes looking down on your body, you've mentioned a few

615
00:31:23,480 --> 00:31:24,480
times.

616
00:31:24,480 --> 00:31:25,480
Yes.

617
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:31,720
Most people will say, that was me out of my body looking down on my body.

618
00:31:31,720 --> 00:31:34,400
But you feel like that wasn't the case with you?

619
00:31:34,400 --> 00:31:40,440
No, I truly believe it was either like my maker, my creator, like, but what is that?

620
00:31:40,440 --> 00:31:41,440
Am I my own maker?

621
00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:42,440
I don't know.

622
00:31:42,440 --> 00:31:43,440
I don't know.

623
00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:48,480
Also, for me, I believe it could possibly be the eyes of my granddad.

624
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:49,480
He was my best friend.

625
00:31:49,480 --> 00:31:50,480
I have a tattoo here.

626
00:31:50,480 --> 00:31:51,480
I don't know if you can see.

627
00:31:51,480 --> 00:31:53,480
Let me show you here, guys, on the camera.

628
00:31:53,480 --> 00:31:55,680
I have a tattoo that says granddad here.

629
00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:56,680
There's granddad.

630
00:31:56,680 --> 00:31:59,040
So my granddad was like my best friend.

631
00:31:59,040 --> 00:32:02,920
I see him three times a day because he lived literally two doors down from my parents.

632
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:03,920
Yeah.

633
00:32:03,920 --> 00:32:05,240
He was the one that really believed in me in life.

634
00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:06,960
Like he said, you could achieve anything you want.

635
00:32:06,960 --> 00:32:08,880
You will become so successful.

636
00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:13,760
He was always there for me, but then when I lost my granddad, I lost like a huge part

637
00:32:13,760 --> 00:32:14,760
of myself.

638
00:32:14,760 --> 00:32:19,280
And I truly believe like my granddad was the person that helped pull me through that's

639
00:32:19,280 --> 00:32:22,240
a whole trauma or the traumatic experience.

640
00:32:22,240 --> 00:32:28,440
So you were somehow tuned into his experience of looking down on you then, right?

641
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:32,800
I believe from my own eyes, whether this is correct or not, I truly still don't know

642
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:36,040
now, but I just believe something inside of me is saying, maybe it is your granddad

643
00:32:36,040 --> 00:32:39,840
are looking down at you, just looking over you to make sure you're okay.

644
00:32:39,840 --> 00:32:43,960
But the thing is, there kept being these transitions where the eyes kept transitioning

645
00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:46,160
back into my head, right?

646
00:32:46,160 --> 00:32:47,800
Back into my body.

647
00:32:47,800 --> 00:32:48,800
Interesting.

648
00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:49,800
Okay.

649
00:32:49,800 --> 00:32:54,640
Now you were talking about also looking down on this surgery happening with no blood or

650
00:32:54,640 --> 00:32:58,360
anything and these people are talking in a different language.

651
00:32:58,360 --> 00:33:02,840
Is this different than the initial surgery that you had gone through?

652
00:33:02,840 --> 00:33:03,840
What was it?

653
00:33:03,840 --> 00:33:05,560
Just a few days before this?

654
00:33:05,560 --> 00:33:07,360
The real surgery in the hospital?

655
00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:11,320
Is this something different or like a replay?

656
00:33:11,320 --> 00:33:12,320
Explain.

657
00:33:12,320 --> 00:33:14,680
It's okay if you don't totally know.

658
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:15,680
Just your opinion.

659
00:33:15,680 --> 00:33:17,680
No, I truly don't know.

660
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:18,680
I truly don't know.

661
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:19,800
And will I ever know?

662
00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:20,800
Who knows?

663
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:25,480
Maybe one day I'll figure this all out, but at the minute I can't be 100% certain, but

664
00:33:25,480 --> 00:33:29,440
maybe it is a sort of a replay of what actually happened.

665
00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:30,440
Possibly.

666
00:33:30,440 --> 00:33:32,440
I really don't know.

667
00:33:32,440 --> 00:33:36,880
But the word that I want to use, actually watching this unfold through this different

668
00:33:36,880 --> 00:33:39,120
set of eyes was bliss.

669
00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:40,120
It was blissful.

670
00:33:40,120 --> 00:33:44,600
It was the most blissful thing that I'd ever seen me being operated on and these doctors

671
00:33:44,600 --> 00:33:49,840
just whispering in this unknown language and it was just so perfect just watching this

672
00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:50,840
thing unfold.

673
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:51,840
It was no pain.

674
00:33:51,840 --> 00:33:52,840
It was just pleasure.

675
00:33:52,840 --> 00:33:58,240
It was one of the most amazing things or probably the most amazing thing I've ever seen.

676
00:33:58,240 --> 00:33:59,240
Yeah.

677
00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:03,240
And you would think that that would be disturbing, not blissful.

678
00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:09,520
I've had some other people on this show that have talked about seeing spiritual beings,

679
00:34:09,520 --> 00:34:15,240
whether they call them angels or whatever, spiritual beings actually doing some healing

680
00:34:15,240 --> 00:34:19,040
to their body while they were out of the body.

681
00:34:19,040 --> 00:34:22,600
Is maybe that, do you think maybe that's what was happening?

682
00:34:22,600 --> 00:34:26,800
Could well be because like I say, these people, they look like me and you, but the language,

683
00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:28,920
the noises that were coming out of their mouth.

684
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:29,920
It's unexplainable.

685
00:34:29,920 --> 00:34:32,400
I could not tell you even what it sounded like.

686
00:34:32,400 --> 00:34:35,440
So these could have been say angels, they could have been spirits.

687
00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:41,560
Who knows what they could have been, but they, the language they were speaking was just not

688
00:34:41,560 --> 00:34:44,120
from this planet as well.

689
00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:50,520
Well and the reason that you felt bliss tells me that something good was going on, something

690
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:54,880
spiritually positive was happening at that point, right?

691
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:55,880
Sure.

692
00:34:55,880 --> 00:34:56,880
Okay.

693
00:34:56,880 --> 00:34:58,880
Tell me what else happens.

694
00:34:58,880 --> 00:35:00,520
Well, you're in this kind of state.

695
00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:01,520
Yeah.

696
00:35:01,520 --> 00:35:05,120
So as the time goes by, and again, I can't put a number on the time, like it was just,

697
00:35:05,120 --> 00:35:06,680
Yeah, there's no time.

698
00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:07,680
It was literally forever.

699
00:35:07,680 --> 00:35:10,160
It could have been a year, it could have been a second, it could have been a week, it could

700
00:35:10,160 --> 00:35:11,160
have been any time.

701
00:35:11,160 --> 00:35:15,440
So as the time goes by, these doctors, the nurses, they sort of dissipate it.

702
00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:19,240
They just started going behind where I couldn't see and they just pack up their tools and

703
00:35:19,240 --> 00:35:20,240
they just leave.

704
00:35:20,240 --> 00:35:26,600
And now it's just me laying there and my body is just laying there in this bed.

705
00:35:26,600 --> 00:35:27,600
And now I'm looking for answers.

706
00:35:27,600 --> 00:35:29,160
I'm thinking, now what happens?

707
00:35:29,160 --> 00:35:34,400
And I'm just looking down on me, laying there, a mobile, just peaceful, just laying there

708
00:35:34,400 --> 00:35:40,440
and just tranquility, maybe the word, like just bliss.

709
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:41,880
My body is just laying there.

710
00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:45,440
And then out of nowhere, there was this transition.

711
00:35:45,440 --> 00:35:50,240
I get this transition and it's almost like there's this hoover inside my brain, inside

712
00:35:50,240 --> 00:35:51,240
my mind.

713
00:35:51,240 --> 00:35:54,280
It's like the most powerful suction that's inside my body's mind.

714
00:35:54,280 --> 00:35:56,800
And it sucks these eyes straight back in.

715
00:35:56,800 --> 00:36:01,440
Like I said, there's always this transition and the eyes got transitioned back into my

716
00:36:01,440 --> 00:36:03,320
body.

717
00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:10,880
So as I'm laying there, now I've got my eyes in my own body and now I open my eyes and

718
00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:15,320
I look up and I'm in this place where I really don't know it is.

719
00:36:15,320 --> 00:36:21,560
But all I know is I'm laying in this hospital bed with this curtain that is around me, just

720
00:36:21,560 --> 00:36:26,480
in front of me, there's this huge curtain that is surrounding my bed.

721
00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:29,880
And now I'm thinking, now what happens?

722
00:36:29,880 --> 00:36:32,360
I really don't know.

723
00:36:32,360 --> 00:36:36,400
So I'm looking around and I'm looking for answers.

724
00:36:36,400 --> 00:36:37,400
Nothing.

725
00:36:37,400 --> 00:36:45,560
But then suddenly these curtains start to open up and as the curtain open up, it's supernatural,

726
00:36:45,560 --> 00:36:51,640
bright white light shines through again with such intensity that I had to close my eyes.

727
00:36:51,640 --> 00:36:56,560
So I close my eyes because it's almost like heat on my face, that's how bright it is.

728
00:36:56,560 --> 00:37:03,000
But as my eyes are closed, I can feel it's like dimming down and I can feel that the

729
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:07,960
intensity is like getting to a point where it's safe to open my eyes.

730
00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:10,480
So I open my eyes.

731
00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:17,600
And as I do open my eyes, it was when the most profound incredible thing that I've potentially

732
00:37:17,600 --> 00:37:21,880
ever seen and the main part of the story happened.

733
00:37:21,880 --> 00:37:28,200
So I open my eyes and I remember looking out there and bearing in mind this wasn't a room,

734
00:37:28,200 --> 00:37:30,920
this wasn't a place, it was just forever.

735
00:37:30,920 --> 00:37:33,880
It was just forever, it went on forever.

736
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:42,040
And as I look out there, as far as I could see, just forever, I saw every single face

737
00:37:42,040 --> 00:37:45,800
that I'd ever seen in my whole life.

738
00:37:45,800 --> 00:37:50,120
Every single person that I'd ever seen in my whole life, it could have been someone that

739
00:37:50,120 --> 00:37:53,040
I'd bumped into as a kid in the street, it could have been someone that I went on a school

740
00:37:53,040 --> 00:37:57,200
trip with and it was someone that weren't there, it could have been anybody.

741
00:37:57,200 --> 00:38:02,720
Every single face that I'd ever seen and everywhere I looked up, down, every single place I just

742
00:38:02,720 --> 00:38:05,320
saw faces of people.

743
00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:10,760
You know, they were in an order of importance because the closer that these faces got to

744
00:38:10,760 --> 00:38:13,240
me, the more important that these people meant to me.

745
00:38:13,240 --> 00:38:17,520
Like it could have been a childhood friend, it could have been a family friend, to a family

746
00:38:17,520 --> 00:38:23,800
member and then right at the very end of my hospital bed were my immediate family, the

747
00:38:23,800 --> 00:38:26,000
people that really meant the most to me.

748
00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:30,360
My granddad, he was there, even though he was dead, he was there right at the end of

749
00:38:30,360 --> 00:38:36,160
the bed, my mum, my dad, my sister, my brothers and they were all there and they were all

750
00:38:36,160 --> 00:38:41,800
just looking at me and I remember looking back at them and I looked at every single

751
00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:52,560
face and I remember looking out at all of those faces and every single face that I looked

752
00:38:52,560 --> 00:38:59,360
out to, it was just silently sobbing, it was just tears running down the faces of every

753
00:38:59,360 --> 00:39:01,440
single face that I looked out to.

754
00:39:01,440 --> 00:39:05,280
Straight away I panicked, I was nervous, I was scared.

755
00:39:05,280 --> 00:39:08,320
The first thought that went through my mind said, what have I done wrong?

756
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:11,040
I really thought that I had done something really, really wrong.

757
00:39:11,040 --> 00:39:14,440
My heart was going, I was just panicking, I was nervous, I was so scared.

758
00:39:14,440 --> 00:39:18,400
I just thought, I've done something really, really wrong.

759
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:19,640
I need to grab their attention.

760
00:39:19,640 --> 00:39:24,840
So I started to speak to them.

761
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:29,160
Not a single word come out of my mouth, nothing.

762
00:39:29,160 --> 00:39:34,080
I tried to shout, I tried to scream, no words were coming out of my mouth.

763
00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:35,960
So I thought, I know what I'll do, I'll try and grab their attention.

764
00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:41,640
So I put my hands up to wave at them, it just looked straight through me.

765
00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:43,640
It was like I didn't even exist.

766
00:39:43,640 --> 00:39:48,360
And again, I tried forever, literally forever.

767
00:39:48,360 --> 00:39:51,680
Every single thing that I'd done didn't work.

768
00:39:51,680 --> 00:39:57,520
And I remember, I closed my eyes and I cried and I just give up on myself.

769
00:39:57,520 --> 00:40:02,200
I literally closed my eyes and I started crying and I remember I just put my head back and

770
00:40:02,200 --> 00:40:07,320
I dropped my head back on that pillow and the moment my head hit that pillow, that suction

771
00:40:07,320 --> 00:40:11,320
again was on my head, on the top of my head with such intensity.

772
00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:16,280
It sucked everything out of it, the people, the faces, the eyes, the bright white.

773
00:40:16,280 --> 00:40:20,520
Every single thing got sucked up and out of my head and just went.

774
00:40:20,520 --> 00:40:25,280
So now we're not in bright whiteness, we're in pitch black again.

775
00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:28,880
And I'm just thinking what's happening now because I can't see anything.

776
00:40:28,880 --> 00:40:35,240
Again it's pitch black but bearing in mind in this white place, it was cold.

777
00:40:35,240 --> 00:40:39,960
But now in this dark black place, my body's starting to warm up.

778
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:42,880
I could feel it, I could feel my body getting warm.

779
00:40:42,880 --> 00:40:48,880
I couldn't see anything but in the distance I hear a beeping noise.

780
00:40:48,880 --> 00:40:54,760
Beep, beep, beep.

781
00:40:54,760 --> 00:41:00,760
And in my mind I'm thinking, Ryan, you need to wake up.

782
00:41:00,760 --> 00:41:04,440
You have work today and you're going to be so late for work.

783
00:41:04,440 --> 00:41:05,920
You need to wake up now, Ryan.

784
00:41:05,920 --> 00:41:10,400
Your boss is going to be so angry with you if you don't wake up now because you're going

785
00:41:10,400 --> 00:41:11,400
to be so, so late.

786
00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:16,360
So in my mind I just believed it was a Saturday morning and I had work on the Saturday.

787
00:41:16,360 --> 00:41:19,240
So I'm just telling myself, wake up, you're going to be so, so late.

788
00:41:19,240 --> 00:41:24,960
I believed I went out the night before and I couldn't wake up in time for work and my

789
00:41:24,960 --> 00:41:28,000
boss is going to be so angry with me.

790
00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:31,640
So this noise is getting faster, it's going beep, beep, beep and it's getting louder and

791
00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:34,640
faster, louder and faster.

792
00:41:34,640 --> 00:41:38,400
So the point I said, Ryan, wake up now.

793
00:41:38,400 --> 00:41:39,400
Boom.

794
00:41:39,400 --> 00:41:45,200
I actually opened my eyes and now in this moment I'm back in the real world and I look

795
00:41:45,200 --> 00:41:50,880
around and I'm in this pitch black room all by myself laying there in that hospital bed

796
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:56,920
and I'm looking around and my head is so sore, my body is hurting and I look down slowly

797
00:41:56,920 --> 00:41:59,920
at myself and I had needles all in my arm.

798
00:41:59,920 --> 00:42:06,080
I had pads all on my chest and a shoe tube down my throat and I'm just thinking, where

799
00:42:06,080 --> 00:42:07,080
am I?

800
00:42:07,080 --> 00:42:08,080
Is this a movie?

801
00:42:08,080 --> 00:42:09,080
Is this real?

802
00:42:09,080 --> 00:42:10,080
I don't even know where I am.

803
00:42:10,080 --> 00:42:18,000
I just hear this beeping inside of me, beep, beep and I remember turning my head so slowly

804
00:42:18,000 --> 00:42:24,520
because it was hurting so much and I look and that beeping noise was the life support

805
00:42:24,520 --> 00:42:32,920
machine that was keeping me alive this very whole time and again I look back at my body

806
00:42:32,920 --> 00:42:42,560
and I look around and then I remembered everything, every single thing I remember at all.

807
00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:46,640
It was like the only way I can explain this is like back in the day when we had computers

808
00:42:46,640 --> 00:42:50,720
maybe 10 years ago and we used to try and open too many tabs and the computer would

809
00:42:50,720 --> 00:42:53,160
just freeze because it was too much information.

810
00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:58,560
I literally had dropped in my mind every single bit of information from that night prior to

811
00:42:58,560 --> 00:42:59,560
when I was attacked.

812
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:02,040
And I remembered everything.

813
00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:07,120
I remembered who it was, what people were there, what taxi it was, where we was.

814
00:43:07,120 --> 00:43:09,800
I remembered every single thing.

815
00:43:09,800 --> 00:43:17,200
That information just got dropped into my mind and I remembered it's so specific and

816
00:43:17,200 --> 00:43:22,480
I cried because the pain was so bad because of the information in my mind in that time

817
00:43:22,480 --> 00:43:24,360
was so, so painful.

818
00:43:24,360 --> 00:43:27,560
Again it just felt like someone had smashed me over the head with a baseball bat because

819
00:43:27,560 --> 00:43:33,280
it was just too much information for my mind to take in at one time and again I just cried

820
00:43:33,280 --> 00:43:35,360
and this is now back in the real world.

821
00:43:35,360 --> 00:43:39,920
I just cried my eyes out and I remember I put my head on that pillow again and I cried

822
00:43:39,920 --> 00:43:41,240
myself to sleep.

823
00:43:41,240 --> 00:43:48,320
But then when I did wake up in the morning I woke up and I see the faces and the bodies

824
00:43:48,320 --> 00:43:53,200
of my real family and they were stood there at the end of my bed the very first time that

825
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:59,200
they saw me actually woken up the first time and they were there, my mum, my dad, my brothers,

826
00:43:59,200 --> 00:44:01,880
my sister and they were all just looking at me.

827
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:06,320
And I remember they were saying, he's awake.

828
00:44:06,320 --> 00:44:10,480
I wonder if he knows who we are because the doctors told my parents he would never remember

829
00:44:10,480 --> 00:44:11,480
any of you.

830
00:44:11,480 --> 00:44:14,880
He won't walk it again, he won't talk again, he won't remember his own name.

831
00:44:14,880 --> 00:44:20,360
And I remember my older brother comes so close to my face and he said, I wonder if he knows

832
00:44:20,360 --> 00:44:21,360
who I am.

833
00:44:21,360 --> 00:44:24,160
I thought, you idiot, of course I know who you are.

834
00:44:24,160 --> 00:44:26,640
I couldn't speak, I could barely move in that moment.

835
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,480
I thought, of course I know you are.

836
00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:33,400
My mum was there, she was just crying her eyes out and they were asking me things I couldn't

837
00:44:33,400 --> 00:44:35,640
even reply.

838
00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:41,400
And this is when I realised that I'm back on earth and I truly believe from that whole

839
00:44:41,400 --> 00:44:46,360
experience just to sort of finish this part off that I believe we're all here for a special

840
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:47,880
reason.

841
00:44:47,880 --> 00:44:52,040
Some people find out why they're here on earth and others don't sadly.

842
00:44:52,040 --> 00:44:56,240
But I believe that I had to go through that experience to really discover who I truly

843
00:44:56,240 --> 00:45:01,040
am and I believe that I was put on this planet to help other people discover who they truly

844
00:45:01,040 --> 00:45:02,040
are.

845
00:45:02,040 --> 00:45:09,320
Doing the research now looking back, I honestly believe that I was sent back here to earth.

846
00:45:09,320 --> 00:45:14,640
My life was spared because I hadn't yet finished the job that I was sent here to do in the

847
00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:19,400
first place and that's why my maker, my creator, sent me back to complete the mission that

848
00:45:19,400 --> 00:45:20,920
I was sent to do.

849
00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:24,520
And this is why the people were crying, that's why all those faces were crying because they

850
00:45:24,520 --> 00:45:27,160
knew I hadn't fulfilled my potential.

851
00:45:27,160 --> 00:45:30,280
And because I hadn't done that, they were crying because they were still trapped in

852
00:45:30,280 --> 00:45:34,000
a place where they didn't want to be because I was the person that was here to guide them,

853
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:36,120
to show them the way.

854
00:45:36,120 --> 00:45:39,320
Because I hadn't done that yet, they were all just crying their eyes out.

855
00:45:39,320 --> 00:45:43,360
Because in that moment, that was the end of me, Ryan Nurse was no more.

856
00:45:43,360 --> 00:45:47,480
And you know, looking back, my family used to say like, Ryan, you're like a cat with

857
00:45:47,480 --> 00:45:48,480
nine lives.

858
00:45:48,480 --> 00:45:53,000
There were so many times when I had like almost death, like knocking on my door, like crazy

859
00:45:53,000 --> 00:45:56,680
things when I was a kid, like, I would do stunts on my body, well, I was knocked out

860
00:45:56,680 --> 00:46:00,400
many, many times, I would walk out in front of buses, cars for instance.

861
00:46:00,400 --> 00:46:04,920
Like, mum, my poor mum, how I didn't die when I was a kid many times.

862
00:46:04,920 --> 00:46:08,040
And people say, Ryan, you're a cat with nine lives.

863
00:46:08,040 --> 00:46:12,880
But you know, this is the last, this is the last life that I would ever need.

864
00:46:12,880 --> 00:46:18,440
Because I don't need anymore, because I know now I'm here for a purpose and I found my

865
00:46:18,440 --> 00:46:19,440
purpose.

866
00:46:19,440 --> 00:46:24,520
And this is the life that I'm going to truly make count.

867
00:46:24,520 --> 00:46:25,960
I can't wait to meet your parents.

868
00:46:25,960 --> 00:46:28,560
They sound awesome.

869
00:46:28,560 --> 00:46:30,520
Let alone saved your life.

870
00:46:30,520 --> 00:46:35,120
And sometime way, way down the road, when we're both on the other side, you introduced

871
00:46:35,120 --> 00:46:36,920
me to your granddad too.

872
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:38,520
Sure, deal.

873
00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:39,520
100%.

874
00:46:39,520 --> 00:46:41,020
All right.

875
00:46:41,020 --> 00:46:46,320
I have a question about, you said that you met, you saw everyone that you had ever met

876
00:46:46,320 --> 00:46:47,600
in your life.

877
00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:49,200
Was there any kind of interaction?

878
00:46:49,200 --> 00:46:52,240
Was there any memory of experiences you had?

879
00:46:52,240 --> 00:46:55,760
Or just like seeing a stadium full of people?

880
00:46:55,760 --> 00:46:58,800
It wasn't even, it was just a white space that went on forever.

881
00:46:58,800 --> 00:47:03,680
It was just, everywhere was filled, this white space, like it was just filled with faces.

882
00:47:03,680 --> 00:47:09,560
So it wasn't so much part of a life review as it was just a glimpse at all these people.

883
00:47:09,560 --> 00:47:12,480
It was the people that I'd seen.

884
00:47:12,480 --> 00:47:15,200
I would see them, maybe I wouldn't even say the words of them.

885
00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:18,240
Maybe it was like a bump into them in the street and went, oops, it could have been

886
00:47:18,240 --> 00:47:19,240
anything.

887
00:47:19,240 --> 00:47:21,040
But I'd seen them at one point in my life.

888
00:47:21,040 --> 00:47:22,200
I would have seen them somewhere.

889
00:47:22,200 --> 00:47:24,720
And it was every single face that I'd ever seen.

890
00:47:24,720 --> 00:47:29,120
They were all looking at me and all crying, just tears coming from their face.

891
00:47:29,120 --> 00:47:30,280
Okay.

892
00:47:30,280 --> 00:47:33,040
You said that you came back with a purpose.

893
00:47:33,040 --> 00:47:35,600
Are you familiar with what mission statements are?

894
00:47:35,600 --> 00:47:36,600
Yes.

895
00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:38,560
Like businesses and stuff have them?

896
00:47:38,560 --> 00:47:39,400
Sure.

897
00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:44,160
Can you put that purpose into a one or two sentence like a mission statement?

898
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:45,920
What's your purpose?

899
00:47:45,920 --> 00:47:54,080
So my purpose is to help confused adults discover, design and live their dream life by showing

900
00:47:54,080 --> 00:47:55,080
them the way.

901
00:47:55,080 --> 00:47:59,680
Because obviously I took my life from deathbed to sunbed, from depression to progression,

902
00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:02,680
from calamity to crystal clear clarity.

903
00:48:02,680 --> 00:48:08,120
But I believe my mission is to use the knowledge I've gained from facing and overcoming the

904
00:48:08,120 --> 00:48:13,480
adversities in my life to help other adults discover and design the life of their dreams

905
00:48:13,480 --> 00:48:17,160
and to become the very best version of themselves.

906
00:48:17,160 --> 00:48:18,160
Excellent answer.

907
00:48:18,160 --> 00:48:19,160
Okay.

908
00:48:19,160 --> 00:48:20,640
I want to hit on a couple of other things.

909
00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:26,940
The first one is you mentioned to me before that you've written a book and people can

910
00:48:26,940 --> 00:48:28,600
find it on your website.

911
00:48:28,600 --> 00:48:31,160
That'll be in the show notes.

912
00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:33,720
Give us the very brief, what's your book called?

913
00:48:33,720 --> 00:48:34,720
What's it about?

914
00:48:34,720 --> 00:48:38,040
So this one isn't really to do with the out of body experience.

915
00:48:38,040 --> 00:48:41,480
There is a bit in there about that, but this book is called Sort Your Shout.

916
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:44,480
And it's literally how to build the life of your dreams.

917
00:48:44,480 --> 00:48:48,120
Because at one point in my life, I didn't have a clue what I wanted to do with my life.

918
00:48:48,120 --> 00:48:49,120
I was so confused.

919
00:48:49,120 --> 00:48:53,040
I've faced and overcome many adversities in my life.

920
00:48:53,040 --> 00:48:56,760
The point where I am today, I've been living my dream life for the last few years and I'm

921
00:48:56,760 --> 00:48:58,160
living it on a daily basis.

922
00:48:58,160 --> 00:49:00,920
And how I'm here now is crazy.

923
00:49:00,920 --> 00:49:05,960
And I obviously had to go through the steps myself to actually achieve this.

924
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:10,800
Try what I am called to put this into writing, into a step by step easy process for other

925
00:49:10,800 --> 00:49:11,800
adults to do the same.

926
00:49:11,800 --> 00:49:17,280
So look, for a fraction of the cost that's a couple of cups of coffee, you can get your

927
00:49:17,280 --> 00:49:18,280
hands on this.

928
00:49:18,280 --> 00:49:20,760
To actually build the life of your dreams.

929
00:49:20,760 --> 00:49:23,080
And then I'll be soon writing my next book as well.

930
00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:28,720
So this one, you can head over to sortyourshutout.ryannurse.com and you can get it there.

931
00:49:28,720 --> 00:49:32,960
Or you can head over to Amazon and type in sortyourshutout and you can get a copy.

932
00:49:32,960 --> 00:49:37,240
But my next book, which I'm going to be writing this year and publishing this year, it's going

933
00:49:37,240 --> 00:49:41,360
to be called Dying with Regrets.

934
00:49:41,360 --> 00:49:43,120
That's an awesome title.

935
00:49:43,120 --> 00:49:48,360
Your first one, by the way, there are quite a few other books on Amazon by the same title.

936
00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:53,200
So be sure to look for the one by Ryan Nurse or just go to his website.

937
00:49:53,200 --> 00:49:54,480
Okay.

938
00:49:54,480 --> 00:49:58,280
You gave us a minute ago, a perfect ending to this podcast.

939
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:00,080
I should have just cut it off right there.

940
00:50:00,080 --> 00:50:04,760
But I wanted to hear about your book and I think other people like me are going to be

941
00:50:04,760 --> 00:50:05,920
curious.

942
00:50:05,920 --> 00:50:14,080
Was there any kind of resolution to this whole thing with, I mean, these guys just attacked

943
00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:17,280
you, unprovoked.

944
00:50:17,280 --> 00:50:19,160
There was a lot of damage.

945
00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:20,160
What happened to them?

946
00:50:20,160 --> 00:50:21,480
I mean, were they arrested?

947
00:50:21,480 --> 00:50:22,480
Things like that.

948
00:50:22,480 --> 00:50:23,480
Yeah.

949
00:50:23,480 --> 00:50:25,400
So obviously the guys were found straight away.

950
00:50:25,400 --> 00:50:28,560
Like the place where we live is so small and like everyone knows everyone.

951
00:50:28,560 --> 00:50:31,840
People talk, so these guys got found straight away.

952
00:50:31,840 --> 00:50:34,000
They know who it was.

953
00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:38,760
To round up the story, we found out the reason why we got removed from the taxi because the

954
00:50:38,760 --> 00:50:44,000
first taxi that we got into was actually these guys' friend, the driver was their friend.

955
00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:45,480
So there wasn't four guys attacking us.

956
00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:47,000
There was five guys attacking us.

957
00:50:47,000 --> 00:50:48,000
It's very mind-nose.

958
00:50:48,000 --> 00:50:49,680
Me, two younger friends and a girl.

959
00:50:49,680 --> 00:50:52,120
So it wasn't, say, a fair fight anyway.

960
00:50:52,120 --> 00:50:54,480
And they just beat the crap out of us.

961
00:50:54,480 --> 00:50:58,000
Well besides you were seatbelted, you had no chance.

962
00:50:58,000 --> 00:50:59,000
I was seatbelted.

963
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:00,000
I had nowhere to go.

964
00:51:00,000 --> 00:51:01,000
I couldn't even get myself away.

965
00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:02,000
Yeah.

966
00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:03,000
You had zero chance.

967
00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:04,000
I had literally zero chance.

968
00:51:04,000 --> 00:51:05,000
So it wasn't a fight.

969
00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:08,000
It was just being beaten up basically.

970
00:51:08,000 --> 00:51:09,000
So yeah.

971
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,280
So obviously it went to court.

972
00:51:11,280 --> 00:51:15,640
It went to court many, many times and the jury couldn't agree on one thing and they

973
00:51:15,640 --> 00:51:19,400
couldn't agree on one other thing and it kept getting adjourned and adjourned.

974
00:51:19,400 --> 00:51:21,600
And like for me, I'd never been to court in my life.

975
00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:26,720
So as an 18-19-year-old boy at the time, it was just such trauma for me.

976
00:51:26,720 --> 00:51:28,040
It was so horrific.

977
00:51:28,040 --> 00:51:33,400
I remember at one point, I was in my old career, I was a car mechanic and I was there.

978
00:51:33,400 --> 00:51:36,880
My dad just turns up to the garage one afternoon and he's like panicking.

979
00:51:36,880 --> 00:51:37,880
He's nervous.

980
00:51:37,880 --> 00:51:38,880
He's just been rushing.

981
00:51:38,880 --> 00:51:40,640
He's like, you need to be in court now.

982
00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:43,560
And bearing in mind, I had ovals on, oil all over me.

983
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:45,240
I had like a car in bits.

984
00:51:45,240 --> 00:51:47,040
The customer wants the car back.

985
00:51:47,040 --> 00:51:48,440
I'm just like, I don't want to go.

986
00:51:48,440 --> 00:51:49,840
And he's like, no, you need to go.

987
00:51:49,840 --> 00:51:50,840
The judge has called you in.

988
00:51:50,840 --> 00:51:51,840
You need to be there.

989
00:51:51,840 --> 00:51:53,720
I remember just crying the whole way.

990
00:51:53,720 --> 00:51:56,040
I'd get into court and I just didn't want to be there.

991
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:59,160
It was just so much pressure for me as a young boy.

992
00:51:59,160 --> 00:52:03,320
And I had to go there because I remember when the police come to my bed when I first woke

993
00:52:03,320 --> 00:52:06,520
up, I wrote a written statement of exactly what happened.

994
00:52:06,520 --> 00:52:09,440
And because one of my eyes was busted, it was upwards.

995
00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:13,040
The letter went from big letters to small and it went bent down.

996
00:52:13,040 --> 00:52:16,560
And I read back everything and the jury couldn't believe it.

997
00:52:16,560 --> 00:52:21,200
So in the end, yeah, there was, I think, a couple of guys out of the five of them went

998
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:22,200
to prison.

999
00:52:22,200 --> 00:52:26,720
I think one got a year and was no, one got like eight or six months, whatever it was.

1000
00:52:26,720 --> 00:52:27,720
It wasn't long.

1001
00:52:27,720 --> 00:52:30,920
I think he's got a bit of community service in the end.

1002
00:52:30,920 --> 00:52:35,280
The guy that attacked me was actually the taxi driver from the other taxi or like the

1003
00:52:35,280 --> 00:52:37,280
first taxi.

1004
00:52:37,280 --> 00:52:40,440
And he got 18 months, I believe, and was out in a year.

1005
00:52:40,440 --> 00:52:43,520
So people say to me, look, you didn't get justice there.

1006
00:52:43,520 --> 00:52:45,720
Like they should have got five, 10 years.

1007
00:52:45,720 --> 00:52:47,480
They should have got this, that and the other.

1008
00:52:47,480 --> 00:52:48,720
But what is the price of a life?

1009
00:52:48,720 --> 00:52:51,320
How many years in prison for someone should it be for a life?

1010
00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:54,360
Would you say, would you argue it should be a life for a life?

1011
00:52:54,360 --> 00:52:55,360
I don't know.

1012
00:52:55,360 --> 00:52:56,360
Some people have different opinions.

1013
00:52:56,360 --> 00:52:58,160
But what is the price of a life?

1014
00:52:58,160 --> 00:53:02,000
So if you're listening to this now, let me tell you, a price of your life is absolutely

1015
00:53:02,000 --> 00:53:03,680
price less.

1016
00:53:03,680 --> 00:53:05,960
You can't put a price on anybody's life.

1017
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:11,920
So for me, waking up and being where I am today, I'm so grateful for all of that past

1018
00:53:11,920 --> 00:53:16,480
pain and the people that I once believed were the source of my suffering because I had to

1019
00:53:16,480 --> 00:53:19,760
go through that stuff in order to get to the place where I am today.

1020
00:53:19,760 --> 00:53:23,200
So no justice for a life is good enough.

1021
00:53:23,200 --> 00:53:26,520
So for me, it was just forgiveness.

1022
00:53:26,520 --> 00:53:30,480
I forgive those people because all of those things that those people once done to me in

1023
00:53:30,480 --> 00:53:33,320
the past, whether it is that, whether it is other things that happened because many other

1024
00:53:33,320 --> 00:53:34,840
things happened in my life.

1025
00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:41,080
But I forgive every single person that I believed or perceived what caused me pain in the past

1026
00:53:41,080 --> 00:53:46,200
because pain is inevitable.

1027
00:53:46,200 --> 00:53:47,200
Suffering is optional.

1028
00:53:47,200 --> 00:53:51,480
You can either be a victim or a victor of your past.

1029
00:53:51,480 --> 00:53:56,160
And if you're still suffering today, you, my friend, are a volunteer.

1030
00:53:56,160 --> 00:54:02,720
So you need to forgive and move on because it's not like forgive and forget.

1031
00:54:02,720 --> 00:54:09,120
It's forgive and move on because those people that you say potentially have pain or anger

1032
00:54:09,120 --> 00:54:12,640
towards them, they've already moved on with their life.

1033
00:54:12,640 --> 00:54:17,880
So you need to forgive them because anger is such a strong word.

1034
00:54:17,880 --> 00:54:23,800
Anger is one letter away from the word danger.

1035
00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:27,920
Anger is the wind that blows out the lamp of the mind and holding on to anger is like

1036
00:54:27,920 --> 00:54:31,320
drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.

1037
00:54:31,320 --> 00:54:35,040
It is forgiveness that is the antidote.

1038
00:54:35,040 --> 00:54:37,800
But it's not always that easy.

1039
00:54:37,800 --> 00:54:39,120
Sometimes we want to forgive.

1040
00:54:39,120 --> 00:54:41,800
What's your secret to forgiveness?

1041
00:54:41,800 --> 00:54:45,400
It's just knowing that if you don't forgive that person for what they've done to those

1042
00:54:45,400 --> 00:54:49,560
people or that situation that was potentially out of your control.

1043
00:54:49,560 --> 00:54:51,720
Like for me, I didn't want that to happen to me.

1044
00:54:51,720 --> 00:54:55,960
But I was in, say, the right place at the right time or the wrong place at the right

1045
00:54:55,960 --> 00:54:56,960
time.

1046
00:54:56,960 --> 00:54:59,640
But if that didn't happen, would I be where I am today?

1047
00:54:59,640 --> 00:55:02,360
Would I have wrote my book here that I've got in my hand?

1048
00:55:02,360 --> 00:55:04,760
Would I have helped the people that I've helped on a global scale?

1049
00:55:04,760 --> 00:55:06,520
Would I have been speaking on stages across the world?

1050
00:55:06,520 --> 00:55:07,920
Would I have podcasts?

1051
00:55:07,920 --> 00:55:09,840
Would I be doing the things that I'm doing today?

1052
00:55:09,840 --> 00:55:11,320
Potentially not.

1053
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:12,800
I could have been living that life.

1054
00:55:12,800 --> 00:55:13,800
That wasn't fulfilling.

1055
00:55:13,800 --> 00:55:19,320
That was just the mundane, the average life that society says that we need to live.

1056
00:55:19,320 --> 00:55:20,320
No.

1057
00:55:20,320 --> 00:55:22,640
So what is the secret to forgiving?

1058
00:55:22,640 --> 00:55:24,960
Knowing that forgiving isn't for anybody else.

1059
00:55:24,960 --> 00:55:26,640
It isn't for them.

1060
00:55:26,640 --> 00:55:27,640
It's for you.

1061
00:55:27,640 --> 00:55:33,520
Because if you don't forgive and move on and accept the certain situations and things

1062
00:55:33,520 --> 00:55:37,160
and people and what have happened into your life, if you don't accept them for happening

1063
00:55:37,160 --> 00:55:41,280
the way that they happened and understanding that potentially you didn't do it.

1064
00:55:41,280 --> 00:55:44,640
You didn't have control over what happened.

1065
00:55:44,640 --> 00:55:48,400
And whether we like it or not, we will hold our own responsibility.

1066
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:50,800
We will play the part in our life's journey.

1067
00:55:50,800 --> 00:55:52,280
But I was in that situation.

1068
00:55:52,280 --> 00:55:55,280
I didn't have to go to the club that night, but I wanted to go.

1069
00:55:55,280 --> 00:55:58,680
So I hold responsible for that, for being there.

1070
00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:04,880
But if you don't forgive, that situation, those people, that painful event, is going

1071
00:56:04,880 --> 00:56:07,800
to hold a piece of you for the rest of your life.

1072
00:56:07,800 --> 00:56:11,480
And you'll never be able to get through your life without feeling pain in some sort of

1073
00:56:11,480 --> 00:56:12,480
way.

1074
00:56:12,480 --> 00:56:15,360
And you'll never truly get past what had happened to you.

1075
00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:18,160
And you'll always hold a piece of resentment inside of you.

1076
00:56:18,160 --> 00:56:21,320
And it's going to eat you up for the rest of your life.

1077
00:56:21,320 --> 00:56:24,920
So you need to forgive and know that it's going to set you free.

1078
00:56:24,920 --> 00:56:28,800
So forgiveness is freedom, my friends.

1079
00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:31,280
So Ryan, any last message for us?

1080
00:56:31,280 --> 00:56:32,280
Yes.

1081
00:56:32,280 --> 00:56:35,480
So I have something that I'd like to take you through, guys, here.

1082
00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:36,480
It's a little journey.

1083
00:56:36,480 --> 00:56:38,640
I just want you to go with me on this one.

1084
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:40,240
Just use your imagination.

1085
00:56:40,240 --> 00:56:43,680
So envision this.

1086
00:56:43,680 --> 00:56:49,960
Just imagine you managed to meet your maker, your creator.

1087
00:56:49,960 --> 00:56:53,760
And they said to you, how was your time on Earth?

1088
00:56:53,760 --> 00:56:56,520
Did you do all of the things that you wanted to do?

1089
00:56:56,520 --> 00:56:59,440
Go all of the places where you wanted to go.

1090
00:56:59,440 --> 00:57:02,000
Say all of the things that you wanted to say.

1091
00:57:02,000 --> 00:57:04,000
And you said, no.

1092
00:57:04,000 --> 00:57:06,000
No, I didn't.

1093
00:57:06,000 --> 00:57:09,360
So they invite you to sit down at this desk.

1094
00:57:09,360 --> 00:57:13,720
And on this desk are two big books.

1095
00:57:13,720 --> 00:57:20,600
And they point at the first book and say, this is the manual that I had created for your

1096
00:57:20,600 --> 00:57:21,600
life.

1097
00:57:21,600 --> 00:57:26,440
So you pick it up and you begin to flick through.

1098
00:57:26,440 --> 00:57:31,240
And you see all of your life start to unfold, all of those magical maternal moments in the

1099
00:57:31,240 --> 00:57:33,960
arms of your magnificent mother.

1100
00:57:33,960 --> 00:57:37,840
All of those fun times growing up through childhood, teenagers, early adulthood.

1101
00:57:37,840 --> 00:57:42,040
And then you start to see all of these amazing things.

1102
00:57:42,040 --> 00:57:45,600
All of the things that you were too scared to do.

1103
00:57:45,600 --> 00:57:50,920
So you look at the second book and you pick it up and you flick through.

1104
00:57:50,920 --> 00:57:53,120
And of course, this is your life.

1105
00:57:53,120 --> 00:57:54,760
Your life up to today.

1106
00:57:54,760 --> 00:57:58,680
Yeah, it's been an OK life.

1107
00:57:58,680 --> 00:58:06,720
And then suddenly you're flicking through pages of blank nothingness, absolutely nothing.

1108
00:58:06,720 --> 00:58:12,760
And you're instantly overwhelmed with resentment, responsibility and regret.

1109
00:58:12,760 --> 00:58:19,960
Knowing full well, you can never reapply to return and reattempt to relive the life that

1110
00:58:19,960 --> 00:58:23,640
was created for you all along.

1111
00:58:23,640 --> 00:58:25,480
Because that is it.

1112
00:58:25,480 --> 00:58:26,480
It's over.

1113
00:58:26,480 --> 00:58:28,840
There's no going back.

1114
00:58:28,840 --> 00:58:34,360
But people, I just want you to realize that your dream life is right there, right in front

1115
00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:36,560
of you, ready for the taking.

1116
00:58:36,560 --> 00:58:42,720
But you just have to reach out and grab it with both hands.

1117
00:58:42,720 --> 00:58:47,000
So whatever you do, people, don't wait for the manual.

1118
00:58:47,000 --> 00:58:48,000
Make the manual.

1119
00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:53,440
Because if regret is something that you're going to take to the tomb with you, do not

1120
00:58:53,440 --> 00:58:58,480
take your greatness to the grave because so many people have such greatness inside of

1121
00:58:58,480 --> 00:59:02,160
them waiting to be shared with the world.

1122
00:59:02,160 --> 00:59:06,560
But they're not doing it because they honestly believe they're going to wake up tomorrow.

1123
00:59:06,560 --> 00:59:11,040
Not many things in life are 100% guaranteed, my friends.

1124
00:59:11,040 --> 00:59:16,280
But two things are that we are all born and we will all die.

1125
00:59:16,280 --> 00:59:22,680
It's what we do with the opportunity between these two events that really matter most.

1126
00:59:22,680 --> 00:59:29,920
So please do make the very most out of your unique thought that you have on this earth.

1127
00:59:29,920 --> 00:59:32,120
Thank you so much.

1128
00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:33,120
Well said, Ryan.

1129
00:59:33,120 --> 00:59:36,080
Thanks for being on with us.

1130
00:59:36,080 --> 00:59:38,880
Thanks again for listening and sharing this podcast.

1131
00:59:38,880 --> 00:59:44,960
Don't forget to hit the follow or subscribe button and sign up for our newsletter at roundtriptest.com.

1132
00:59:44,960 --> 00:59:49,240
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1133
00:59:49,240 --> 00:59:53,520
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1134
00:59:53,520 --> 01:00:22,240
Until then, I wish you everything good that you're looking for in this life and the next.